My words,thoughts and crap...

He-he-hello two zero!!

2012-01-20T20:22:00.000+08:00

*goodbye adolescent phase*

17.01.2012, Cyberheights Villa.

It does feel awkward to say this "I'm 20 years old" when deep inside I still act like a child. To be honest I'm not that excited turning 20, not as much as I'm excited when I turned 17 last time. "It's not a big deal", "age is just a number", "why do you even concern about this matter?", "why are you making a fuss out of this?", yeah that's what I get and what I WILL get after posting this later, haha!! It's not a big deal to me, but the thoughts of it bothers me. Or maybe I think too much until it bothers me. Haha!! I don't know how to explain this thing that I've been thinking lately. I cried when I was talking on the phone with my dad the other day, yes I somehow know that I've disappointed my parents with my exam result,esp my dad. All I can say is I'm sorry. I'll try my best to be a good daughter. I'll try my best to be a better person, so that at the end of the day you can proudly say "that's my daughter and I'm so proud of her".

Ok enough with the "emo" stuff, it's time for Birthday shout out people!!! I would like to mention a few names here, drum roll please.........

Happy belated birthday to my bestfriend KHALEEDA MAIZURA (01.01.1992), we've known each other since we were 7 years old, and I love you SOOOO much despite of everything and anything that ever happen between us. Let's stay together like this forever and my prayer will always be with you. Love you till the end. :'D

Next birthday shout out goes to my cousin MOHD. SAIFUL AZIE (11.01.1988) and also my bebeh, NURWASSIDAH (13.01.1992). I love you so much my dear bestfriend, as much as I love the others as well, and what more can I say, my cousin loves you the best and I hope something very very good will happen to both of you guys. PS: aku mau jadi flower girl okay? haha!! lol joke ok fine all the bestfriend will be in the VVIP guest list instead of helping with your wedding,haha!! :P insyaallah.

Last but not least, happy belated birthday to my cousin SARAH AZIRA a.k.a Kwon Jiyoung's wife (16.01.1990), keep on dreaming, I mean dreaming of becoming GD's wife. And I'll do the same towards Kyuhyun,ngahahahaha!! Bila suda jumpa the right guy kasi kurang sikit la cintamu pada GD hahaha!! PS: I look tanned in the picture, tu zaman study di matrics ok? Skrg putih suda, bole jadi model etude house suda, hahahahaha!! *nonsense*

So I guess that's all for now. And I shall end all the crap here. PS: Happy Chinese New Year!! And now I'm carving for some tangerine. Hahaha!!

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So long 2011,Hello 2012.

2012-01-14T00:59:00.001+08:00

*first post of the year, claps!!!*

Camera testing 1 2 3 :p

The last time i update my blog was like last year. LOL that was not a good intro but who cares, haha!!

So hello everybody, how's 2012 so far? My new year's resolution? Well let's just stick to the old one shall we? Haha!! Let me recap some story from the year 2011, few days before 2012, a brief story regarding our vacation to Melaka. It took me forever just to upload this few photos, and i still have some others to post here. As for now, these are some of my favourite shots.

-1st Day-

Nina and her Dunkin Donuts Iced Cafe Latte. (@ KKIA Terminal 2)

Mumy and Dady!! I don't really know how to dress up myself like my mum, she's loving the "selendang" style and i'm still wearing the normal hijjab style which i don't even know the terms for that style heh!! (@ LCCT)

From left: Jurin, Me and Nina. MIA: Kak Yus

Tea and Coffee break at etc...Coffee Corner (@ Equatorial Melaka Hotel)

Nina and Jurin, the messy hair sisters. Haha!! (@ Menara Taming Sari)

-2nd Day-

Jurin and the love of her life, belacan. (@Dataran Pahlawan

I can't recall the name of this cafe. Owh well who cares, haha!!

I think i'm getting older, i can't recall this one too!! This thing taste soooo good. It is made up of coconut. (Jurin's attempt to become a newbie photographer)

Like a boss.

I'll upload the other photos later. With some editing, if i have the time to do so,haha!! My weeks are packed with classes and lab session, 2nd semester have just started a few days ago. Long way to go,but i'm glad i've made it through during 1st semester, haha!!

Reflection.

Nina's Bokeh attempt.

Our dear Bubble,hehe!!

Last but not least, Tabby!!! XD I miss you already... :(

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If it's you...

2011-12-06T03:20:00.001+08:00

...I wonder how does it feel like if it's really you, yeah, you.

Ignore that.

I'm not gonna update about exam. I'm excited for holiday so why bother talking about exam. I'll be in KK in two days, only God knows how excited I am. It's been awhile, I miss my family and friends back in KK. I miss my hometown. Chill Nadia,you'll breathe the air of KK in two days,so just sit back and relax. Two more papers left, Malaysian Studies on the 7th and Introduction to Pharmacy on the 8th. Then I'll be off back to KK. *ok I should stop talking about this haha!!!*

This was suppose to be a random post about a love story between me and food. I'll include some birthday shout out for my lil sis later. All my friends know that I'm a food addict. I love to eat. Some people may ask me "where did you learn how to cook?", my passion for food taught me how to cook. I know it sounds weird but it is true. Owh well my mum and my aunts (angah and babu) did teach me a bit of some some about cooking. I should at least give them some credits right? Not to forget my grandma too,hehe!!

Cooked my very own version of Nasi Lemak last two days,when I say my very own version it does not mean that I have my very own way and style or recipe,haha!! It was my first attempt to do so and thanked God my housemates love it.

Another thing that I miss: home cooked meal. Lately I've been eating fast food almost 3 times in a week. Not a healthy way to eat and live, but living my life as a student right now, yes, this is the phase in our life where we will consume fast food the most. Sad but true. But I'm not gonna lie, I do enjoy eating fast food.

Domino's Onion Rings is my current addiction, it's a must whenever I order something from Domino's. Ngehehe!! :D

Before I end my babbling, special shout out to my little sister, AZUREEN AIMI BINTI DATU ROSMADI, Happy 17th Birthday to you. I'll treat you with something when I'm back home. I know,let's bake Gingerbread cookies shall we? Haha!! :p

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Someone is excited for holidays :D

2011-11-24T21:02:00.001+08:00

Now Playing - Crazy Ride by Michelle Branch

Hello there. i suddenly feel like doing a brief update. so here i am. babbling as always. i know, i should not waste my time, i should be studying right now. but up until this point even my books want to have a break. haha!! lol. that was suppose to be a joke but its okay if you didn't get it. i love making random jokes. ok stop babbling nadia.

[since balqees did update about her activity during study week,i think should do the same thing too,hehe!!] So study week was okay. i've been studying well(?) if i may say so,haha!! owh well i'm quite nervous for final actually. my mid sem results was seriously BAD, so i really have to do well for final. i can't afford to disappoint my parents over and over again. sometime i just have to make them proud of me, so yeah... let's just pray and hope for the best shall we? hehe!!

I did some revision on respiratory system just now, hehe!! *patting myself on the head,hehe!!*

Ok that's all for now. Countdown: 14 days till i see m beloved hometown. YESS!! :D:D:D

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KK in my heart :D

2011-11-10T18:58:00.000+08:00

Hello there,it's been awhile. I've been busy with classes, assignments and presentations. Final exam is almost here. And all I can say is I can't wait to go back home despite of not being well prepared for my final exam. Yes, KK is the place where I left my heart and soul. I miss being at home. I miss mum and dad. I miss my siblings and my aunt. I miss my cats. I miss my friends. I miss everything about KK. To be honest I envied some of my classmates and housemates who got the chance to go back home and see their family on every weekend. But what can I do, all I know that this feeling that I get by watching them going back home will make me stronger. My time will come, I'll be counting down the days till I see my family again.

Ok enough with that. This week was awesome. Went to UM for netball friendly match with UM's Kolej 5 team. All I can say is that it was a good thing that our team did not ended up with no score at all. It was a good experience for our team. A big clap for my team,I think we did a pretty good job haha!!

Watched Immortal with my housemate. Too bad Charis couldn't join us. The movie was okay,well that's how I would rate it. At least I didn't end up sleeping in the cinema. Note to myself, never watch midnight movie if you have netball match on the next day. Haha!!

Ok enough with that Nadia, you should be studying right now. Owh well, I suddenly get into my blogging mojo so here I am, babbling like there's nothing to be worry about. And plus I hate flu, can't really do anything when you are having flu. That was random, the flu part. Ignore it.

Before I end this crap, special shout out to my lil sis Azureen Aimi binti Datu Rosmadi, good luck for SPM. Do well, get yourself as much A's as possible so that it will be easier for you to get into a good university in future.

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delayed : socially awkward

2011-10-26T01:26:00.001+08:00

“Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live."

This quote caught my attention. You know how much I love to blog about life. Well you can't really call it blogging, I don't really possessed the ethics of a blogger so you can call it babbling and crapping instead of blogging,haha!!

Anyway, back to the story, yes i did put up a title there, socially awkward. Owh well I did not put up that title on purpose. It's just that I've been going through lots and lots of "socially awkward" moments. I don't blame the environment around me. Sometimes i do blame myself on that one. I'm still trying to get used to this whole new world. The world I live in right now is so unpredictable and sometimes I feel like the world hate me so much. It's not that I live in a different world than the other human being. It's just the way every each individual interpret how this world works differs from how others would interpret it. My point is, sometimes i hate the way things work here in my current place. I can't really connect with the people around me. Except for my housemates and some of my new friends here ( you guys know who you are ^-^ ), I would be dead by now without you guys. Like what I've phrase previously, I do blame myself for this. I'm not ready to break my shell and try my best to connect with people around me. Maybe because some people have this tendency to judge even before knowing that particular person,it makes me more afraid to be myself around them. I know people say you should not think too much about what other people would think about you. But admit it, deep down inside we DO care soooo much about what other people will say about us.

Ok nuff said about that. I should stop. So Lokim will be arriving at lcct at noon tomorrow. I really hope i get the chance to see my friends. I miss my friends so much. I'm like a loner without them. Super loner, haha!! Pity me.

Before i end my crap, a special shout out to my little sister. Happy 15th birthday to MARINA AMNANI BINTI DATU ROSMADI. Love you so much, I'll treat you with something when i get back home this december. IF only i still have some $$ in my hand haha!! Enjoy your after-PMR-life. haha!!

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And this is how the story goes...

2011-10-15T01:54:00.000+08:00

Bluebird by Christina Perri

How the hell does a broken heart get back together when it’s torn apart?

Teach itself to start beating again?

This little bluebird came looking for you

I said that I hadn’t seen you in quite some time

And this little bluebird came looking again

I said we weren’t even friends, she could have you

Don’t you think it was hard?

I didn’t even say that you died

But it wouldn’t have been such a lie, ‘cause then I started to cry

This little bluebird sure won't give it a rest

She swears that you may be better than all the rest

I said, “No, you’ve got it all wrong.

If he was something special, I wouldn’t have this song.”

And don’t you think it was hard?

I didn’t even say that you died

But it wouldn’t have been such a lie, ‘cause then I started to cry

How the hell does a broken heart get back together when it’s torn apart?

And teach itself to start beating again?

What if when she comes over, I am in your arms, taking all I want from you again?

How the hell does a broken heart get back together when it’s torn apart?

Teach itself to start beating again?

How the hell does a broken heart get back together when it’s torn apart?

Teach itself to start beating again?

Beating again

This little bluebird won’t come here anymore

So I went looking for her, and I found you

This song keeps on playing in this tiny mind of mine,and i don't even know why. Does it bring any significant meaning to me? Probably. Who knows,even I myself don't know if it does. I have tons of things to write, but I can't seem to find the proper time and the proper words to phrase it. So I'll do a proper update next time.

Ps: I miss you so much,mum and dad. Lots of love from me. Love you guys so much. :')

It's a damn cold night

2011-09-20T20:48:00.001+08:00

Yeah,the title reminisce part of my memories being Avril Lavigne die hard fan,it's a phrase from one of her song in her debut album, I'm with you. When was it again? Primary 5 if I'm not mistaken. People think you are coolest kid in school if you like or know Avril's song. Well its rainy season here in Cyberjaya, that's why i put that particular phrase as the title for this post. Owh yeah I'm loving this rainy season, it feels so comfortable.

Mid-term exam update!! So two paper down, another two more to go. Lets start with biochem shall we? And i thought biochem will be a bit, at least A BIT (that's all I'm asking for) friendly to me. Seems like all that i get from biochem was hatred. yeah that's what i get for not studying hard enough for biochem. Well i did spend 4 days trying my best to cover that subject and I can put it up into one conclusion: my brain is seriously way too rusty to absorb all the informations within 4 days. Yes some of you might say 4 days is long enough but no no, not for me dear. I'm weak when it comes to this kind of subject. Sometimes I even wonder how did I manage to end up studying pharmacy when I can even memorize all those important things. As for introduction to pharmacy, all i can say it was okay, so right now I'm just hoping that result will turn out good.

Okay stop about exam talk i feel like a nerd already. I have two more paper to go, Human Anatomy and Physiology on Thursday whereas Chemistry is on the last day, Friday, the day I'm flying back to KK woots woots. I love the feeling, the feeling when you are about to go home. Going home is best feeling ever. Better than falling in love. Yes this is what a single lonely girl would say, haha!! Pity me. Anyway, I can't wait to meet my friends back in KK. Living here all on my own makes me feel so lonely and empty. Although some of them are not in KK at this moment but meeting the other half of my friends is way better than not meeting them at all. One of Ayrton's tweet really hit me hard, because i feel the same way he does. The worst part of going to University is that you won't be having your friends around you. Things around here was suppose to be interesting, it's just that when you don't have your friends to share it with or do it together, it seems like it will be the most boring things to do. Well I do hope you guys get my point.

So i guessed that's all for now. I'll try my best to do more update, well it sounds weird for me to say this because I'm not sure whether if anyone do read my what i wrote haha!! Owh well who cares.

Fact of the week : i get annoyed easily, and i don't even know why.


I miss you little(???) fella, I'll see you and the others soon :D:D:D

Edited: Shout out to my big sis, FAIRUZ AMNI BINTI DATU ROSMADI, happy 22nd birthday sis!! may Allah bless you and do well for your final year and lets become the "Wright Brothers" in pharmaceutical field hehe!! Insyaallah.

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reach for the sky, up up and away...

2011-09-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

Reach for the sky-Secondhand Serenade

Watch you waste away.

You were born to shine, but left behind.

Slowly fades to grey.

Yet you say you are fine, but I fear you are blind.

How could you believe that you've done wrong?

You don't believe in yourself.

Reach for the sky

I would pick you up if I could.

Open your eyes

I would pick you up if I could.

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/secondhand-serenade-reach-for-the-sky-lyrics.html ]

Listen to the sound,

Of your days passing by while you live a lie.

Why'd you turn around,

Why'd you say goodbye, was there no reply?

How could you believe that you're not strong?

You don't believe in anything.

So, reach for the sky

I would pick you up if I could.

Open your eyes

I would pick you up if I could.

And then I saw your face

And you were left alone

But you're not alone

You're not alone

Reach for the sky

I would pick you up if I could.

Open your eyes

I would pick you up if I could.

You're not alone

I'm bored, tired of studying when nothing seems to absorbed well into this rusty brain of mine,and coincidentally my playlist on iTunes playing this song here it goes a brief update. Midterm starts on monday and i still have tons of chapters to cover, so i guess updating my blog with a long post is a big no no for now. Countdown: 6 days till i see my beloved hometown, kk. See you guys(Wash,Tyna,Deera and Haziq) soon!!! (^-^)

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One better day...

2011-09-11T18:35:00.002+08:00

Random title. Ignore it.

I was browsing through some of my friends blog and I've selected one blog that i personally think i should recommend. I just love reading elreena's blog. To be honest she inspire me a lot when it comes to blogging. You guys should read it too. Ngehehe!!

Sneek peek of Elle's blog, you guys should go check it out. :D:D:D

Not much to say this time, seriously I have this idea of what to write and babble about but I can't seem to phrase it properly so I'm gonna save it for the next update. I'll post some random pictures for now.

Buka Puasa + Reunion at Upperstar Suria Sabah (27th August 2011)

Ajin,Khal and Wanie

From left : Fathin, Arep and Khairul. Congrats to our newlyweds Fathin. Moga kekal hingga anak cucu amin. :D:D:D

From left: Wash, Me, Lokim and Saif

From left: Wash, Me and Tyna

From left: Tyna, Saif, Ajin, Khal and Wanie

Wanie and Adam, our official awkward plus never-ending-arguments couple haha!! :P:P:P

From left: Wanie, Lokim and Fathin

wank's

Happy couple (Haziq and Umai) plus me (intruder)

Cousins (Wanie and Napi). Missing in action: Deera

From left: Khal, Ajin, Khairul, Wash, Wanie and Arep

Instant picture (if thats what you call it haha!!)

From left: Another happy couple,Maxine and Napi, plus Affiq,idek what he's up to haha!!

From left: Teoh, Mirabelle and Sylvia

From left: Wanie, Saif, Lokim and Adam

Me and Atin sayang ngee!! :D:D:D

Lovely lady 1 : Tyna

Lovely Lady 2: Wash

Ok I should go and continue doing my chemistry pre lab question or else im gonna be dead for lab tomorrow.

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new life,new journey,new beginning

2011-09-10T03:05:00.000+08:00

Now Playing : Distance-Christina Perri

I did promise myself to do a proper update, so here i am writing some thoughts that passed through my mind.

I guessed this is what you call fate. Never in my whole life i've imagined this is how my life will go on. Currently i'm studying at Cyberjaya University College of Medical Sciences (CUCMS),Bachelor of Pharmacy. Yes i do get the stereotype respond such as "private college is it? expensive la tu kan?" "wow,org kaya boleh la masuk private uni..." whenever i mentioned the fact that im studying at CUCMS. It took me quite sometime to get my mind and heart ready for this kind of responds and up until now i have to be honest, i still hate those responds and not that well prepared to hear this kind of crap from other people. At one point i have to admit that i do feel reluctant telling people about this matter. Its not that it is a big deal,its just that i don't really agree with some people's mind setting regarding this matter. Owh well, one thing is for sure, life must go on and i'm almost there, the stage where i will just take whatever people say and let them have those stereotype mind setting about private university. I didn't mean to brag but one of the reason i enrolled into this school is due to the fact that kerajaan negeri sabah is willing to sponsor my studies for the whole four years. So here I am and i've started to loving it bit by bit although i do have a hard time adjusting myself with the surrounding and environment of this place at the first place.

Ok enough about that,lets just chat about my family,friends and raya experience. Lets start with my family. Staying away from my family teaches me to be more independent, but out of all those positive things that I've learned, being away from them makes me appreciate them even more than i do before. It makes me realize that we as a human being have no idea what will happen tomorrow,whether we will be able to see each other again or not. During my ten days of holiday for raya, that was one of the best moment in my life. Thank you Allah for giving me chance to see my family, even though I didnt really get to see them all, but to know the fact that they are doing fine is way more than enough for me. Same goes to my friends to, being able to see them during that 10 days is such a bless. I guessed that's what you call life. Life is so interesting that we could not really figure it out that easily.

Regarding my friends, well its a sad yet a happy story about us. The sad part, we can no longer spend more time together like we always do due to this good news: all of us are finally studying in university, doing our bachelor programme. Wanie is in UITM Shah Alam, approximately 1 hour journey from my current place, Khal is in UITM Melaka, hours from my place,well im not sure how many hours it is,Wash and Tyna is still in Sabah enrolling into UMS, which is five minutes from my house back in Sabah, and Deera soon will be enrolling into MMU which takes only few minutes to get there from my current place. Well some of them are at some other place, sorry if i did not mention about you guys but i just want you guys to know that I'm proud of our achievement so far, and i will always miss you guys wherever i go. Lets meet up,talk and laugh as much as we want to when we meet someday in future.

I should stop here. I'm running out of words after dropping a big sack of words up there.

Ps: Miss you so much, mummy and daddy. I include both of you guys in my prayer everyday, asking Him for a permission and chances to see you again. See you guys including angah, jurin and nina in 23 days. Kak yus, I'll see you tomorrow. :D:D:D

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It's been awhile i guess...

2011-08-29T07:48:00.001+08:00

Now playing on my playlist-the man who can't be move (the script)

Assalamualaikum and peace be upon you.

Just like what i wrote for the title, it's been awhile since i write something here. Few months ago i babbled about how much i'm worried about my future,and within that time many things happened. I guess thats what you call life,so little time so many things need to be done within that short period of time.

I will not update much about my life right now. Blogging from my phone does not feel so right,hehe!! Update will be up soon although im not that sure how soon will it be but i will update this page somehow. Why? Well it's just that i love blogging so much. I guess thats all for now.

Special shout out: Selamat hari raya aidilfitri,maaf zahir dan batin. :):):)

yesterday :D

2011-07-19T19:27:00.002+08:00

happy,the exact word that can describe my feeling. yesterday was awesome. hang out with the girls (wash,wanie,khal,deera and tyna) and another two guys (lokim and saif). it was a blast, the talk, the laughter and not to forget some screaming was included when we are talking,believe me,it was so loud. i woke up early in the morning as usual to prepare lunch box for my little sisters. i wanted to go back to sleep after that but I'm just too excited about the hang out at wanie's that we planned. went to kk plaza to buy instant film for wash's instant camera. saif and I decided to buy one pack too so that we can capture some of the moment while hanging out at wanie's house. lots and lots of things happened during our (me,wash and saif) journey to wanie's house. waffle,taman jumbo 3,everything was so silly and all of us ended up laughing like a maniac. owh well what can i say, being stupid is what we do the best when all of us are together, and that is why i love my friends so so much. they don't mind looking stupid and act like a silly person when all of us are together. wanie said it will be better if all of our other guy friends can come to her house yesterday, but who knows maybe next time. i really hope we could repeat yesterday somewhere anytime in the future.

enough with the words,some picture will describe our day much better than than all of this crap. haha!!

this is so gay... haha!!! sory saif and lokim,haha!!

what we did yesterday was pretty much nothing but it was fun.

these are some other photos taken by deera and wanie. kudos to deera and wanie.

yesterday will be part of our memory together, after this we may not be able to hang out more often as some of us will be leaving for further studies, but do remember one thing, i will always love you guys more than i love you guys yesterday.

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dreams are my reality

2011-07-15T21:21:00.002+08:00

Dreams are my reality
The only kind of real fantasy
Illusions are a common thing
I try to live in dreams
It seems as if it's meant to be

(richard sanderson-reality)

these lyrics keep on playing in my mind. i feel so melancholy with everything that happened recently in my life. i know I'm too young to be worry about my life, but i just can't help it. i feel useless when i didn't pass the entrance exam,to add on to that my dad spend quite a fortune just for the sake of that entrance exam. my upu application didn't really turn out so good, or to be exact turn out the way i want it but still, praise Allah for giving me the chance, and studying in Australia is so far from reality due to scholarship reason even though my application to curtin is still under process. everything seems so wrong. i know regretting about the past is a big no no, but i can't help but to feel that way. owh Lord, help me.

forget about that. i should be thankful at least i got the chance to enroll to UMS. as for the future,lets just pray and hope that it will be better. it might be soon or later,but i believe things will get better,as long as we work hard to make it better.

owh yeah currently I'm watching this Korean drama title "Romance Town", it's a story about five maids who work for rich households ,well you can google it for more information. i'm loving Sung Yuri in this drama,she is just irresistible. and these are my favourite scene so far,this two are just way too cute. keke!!

crazy as it sounds i'm gonna ask my future husband to do this regularly,hehe!!!

so tonight i'll be watching the finale of Harry Potter saga. will be off with my family to 1Borneo around 9.30pm.

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SM All Saints school bazaar

2011-07-03T19:35:00.001+08:00

hello everybody, it's been awhile since I've updated my page. past few days have been such a good day. i got to meet my friends and teachers during sm all saints school bazaar, I'm pretty much satisfied with the way my bedroom look right now (i ended up with my body aching,trying to move two beds and a few furniture with only using my own strength was not a joke i tell you.), and the best part of all, drum rolls please... i finally got to drive on my own after almost two years owning a probation license, yeeppiee!!! I'm excited hell yeah i do, i mean come on, give me break. I've been whining about this driving thingy since forever, so i deserve to have some of this happy moment. I'm not happy because i finally got to drive on my own, well part of it yes i do happy about that, it's just that I'm way more happy about the fact that my parents finally trust me to do something what we can consider dangerous. so all i want to say is thanks mum and dad, i promise i will become a good and wise driver. thanks for the trust that you guys gave to me, i know it was hard for both of you, hehe!!!

so back to the story, school bazaar was awesome. too bad i didn't get to take any nice photo. my little sis happen to bring the camera for her own use but it's okay though. after all it's her senior year so i don't really mind. but we were having fun with wash's new instant camera, took a few pictures to capture our moment at school bazaar. but it was only a few photos, when i say a few i do really mean only a few, about 4 or 5 pictures. owh well, I've decided to go buy my own film and we will use wash's camera to take lots and lots of photo later, hehe!! here are some of the picture taken by deera, thanks for the permission to use your picture for my blog dear. hehe!!!

from left : deera, wash and wanie

deera with my little sister, jurin.

last but not least, me, hehe!!!

photos kudos to my adek cantek deera.

so basically that's how i spend my weekend. it was fun and exciting, i'm just appreciating my freedom right now before i officially enroll into any university that accept me. i'm nervous about UPU results which will be out soon and my application to curtin australia, i really do hope the accept me. i just hope everything turns out the way i want it too, i guess i just have to pray harder, amin.

-end of crap-

you make me wonder

2011-06-27T15:33:00.002+08:00

so today was another ordinary day for me. nothing much. it's just that lately everything that happened reminds me of something that almost work the way i want it. owh whatever, i need to wake up and get back into this world.

i couldn't recall when was it, last Thursday night i think. Qilah, Edna and Sylvia suddenly call me saying that they are right in front of my house. so i went down and check for them outside my house, and there they are, in Qilah's white Myvi. i invited them in and we talked. reminiscing high school memories together. it was fun. too bad i didn't get the chance to take a picture with them. will do so some other time. thanks guys for coming. i miss you guys so much. we should hang out some other time.

to be honest i was quite jealous with qilah. i mean she is driving on her own right now. she even drove back home from miri and it was 9 hours driving. and my parents STILL haven't let me drive on my own. i know i keep on preaching about this issue but for someone with license like me, i have this urge to drive for almost every time i saw our car parked in front of my house. owh well whatever. i should just wait until the time come. might as well just keep myself quiet right now.

so i guessed that's all for now. my inspiration to write something nice suddenly gone. gotta go watch romance town with my little sis.

i just feel like posting kyuhyun's picture. it's been awhile since i post his picture. owh don't mind me, i like him with no specific reason. plus i think he looks cute in this picture. kekeke!!!

-end of crap-

another normal day.

2011-06-23T13:43:00.003+08:00

i have nothing much to say actually, i just feel like updating so here i am ending up babbling, its fun. i just finished watching 90210 season 3. the season ended last month and i would say it was worth watching. the story line as usual, full with drama. so for now i just have to wait for season 4.

pampered myself with the face shop purifying egg white pack. what can i say, when i have absolutely nothing to do,why not spend some time to take care of my skin. and the best part of all, you got to peel the mask off your face. it feels good, kekeke!!!

imma give this product 10 stars out of 10. what can i say, korean cosmetics product is superb. plus its affordable.

-end of crap-

Happy 19th Birthday AMALINA HAZWANI

2011-06-21T23:36:00.000+08:00

i'm 30 minutes earlier, but who cares, haha!!! HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY AMALINA HAZWANI, may all your wishes came true. i've known you since i was 7 and here we are, still friends after 12 years knowing each other. i love you so much darling and my prayer will always be with you for the rest of your life. once again HAPPY SWEET 19 and may Allah bless you. :D:D:D:D:D:D

with love, nadia :D:D:D

-end of beautiful crap-

i'm back, and this time is for real.

2011-06-21T12:08:00.003+08:00

okay, i'm officially updating my site. i'm on a long holiday so why not spend some time writing and babbling here, it's fun after all, i love blogging. but i don't own any good camera, i should get one. pronto. my post will be plain and boring without any good picture. i'm out of words right now, i will write some other time. as for now, i present you some of picture taken at kml, just to reminisce my memories living in km-hell for one year. enjoy!

a small surprise that we prepare for tyna's sweet 19.

i feel lucky having olivia as my classmate. good luck miss earth sabah,hehe!!!

H2T18 Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan 2010/2011

*miss you guys so much :P:P*

-end of crap-

i'm back... i guess...

2011-06-18T12:32:00.001+08:00

i've done some "renovation" to my blogger site. i just feel like updating it. once in a while update would not harm me that much right? haha!!! my words are just way to serious nowadays. i've been doing some thinking about every single thing. i just hope i won't go bald by the end of the year with all of these stuff that crowding up on my mind.

it's a short post, i won't go way too long for this update. just a short comeback intro will do for now.

-end of crap-

update2...

2011-03-21T09:19:00.000+08:00

currently in ICT class. my lecturer is teaching how to create a blog, its fun!!! im always passionate about blogging.

3 weeks to final exam, and then i will be out of this tiny island so called the pearl of borneo. i can't wait to see my family, ive been missing them so so much. esp tabby, i miss that "little" fellow so so much, teehee!!!

im not much of a blogger person right now, since most of my friends are on tumblr instead of blogger, so basically i babble myself out on tumblr. but our ict lab computer somehow blocked tumblr. so here i am babbling on my blogspot site.

-end of crap-

so i guessed its a goodbye then?

2010-01-22T01:17:00.001+08:00

ive decided that i will not update this space. i will stick to tumblr then. i won't delete this blog though, there's just too many words here. ill be doing update only if i want to. so i guessed its a goodbye then. stay tuned to my tumblr.

annyeong!!! (^-^)

1st post of the year

2010-01-02T18:02:00.002+08:00

"my dear beloved blog,

how are you? don't feel bad because i abandoned you for tumblr. that doesn't mean i forget you right??"

wash said i need a lover. i once told wanie about the type of guy that i wanted to be with, but wanie said i have a complicated taste. what makes it complicated? i guessed it is because i want someone normal yet perfect. how complicated was that? haha!! im better off alone until one day i could really find myself the right guy, haha!!!

off for now, bye bye.

ps: i might be doing once a month update on this site. don't mind me ok? stay tuned to my tumblr. the link provided on the "about me" column.

-end of crap-

like being shot by a bullet

2009-12-11T00:33:00.005+08:00

i really shouldnt leave this space all by itself. after all i love this blog so much and this space have been 'listening' to my babble quite a lot. i should write something here.

today was fun, seriously fun. ive been busy holding lots and lots of temptation during spm season, and now that it has come to the end, i know exactly how do my seniors felt when they finished their spm exam.

i went to school to return my textbook. too bad i reached there during lunch hour. so i didn't exactly get to return my book. maybe tomorrow if i have the will to do. i kidnapped wash and wanie from school who officially finished their paper today. welcome to freedom club darling.

we went to my place and get ready before napi fetch us up at home. then we went to 1B and everybody was waiting there. went in the cinema and watch new moon. im not much of twilight fan, but i have to admit jacob is hot and i was touched by the way jacob hugged bella plus knowing the fact that jacob is younger than bella, i was really touched(chin ca ru). still, i still don't get it why i didn't got addicted easily by twilight compared to harry potter.

i saw many people at 1B today. a mysterious someone, i wrote about this someone on my tumblr. i saw my seniors, including someone whom i used to treat like a brother. to be honest, even his ex-girlfriend don't have any issue if they bumped into each other, but me? it's hard for me even if he never once thought of me as his younger sister. i don't have any brother. i only have gudin and gaji as my brother. so if someone treat me like his very own little sister, i would easily fall for their brotherhoodness. so don't blame me if i can't get over some silly stuff. i really want a brother, a biologically blood related brother. it's just a wish that will never be granted. so if someone whom i treat like my own brother decided that he should leave me just because he broke up with my bestfriend, i will have issue with him for the rest of my life.

enough for that. after movie we went to eat at apple cafe, we don't consider that secret recipe is a cheap place to eat. that is where i saw the mysterious someone that i have blogged about at my tumblr and went to noeraebang(karoke) after that. it was nice and noisy at the same time.

im running out of words. seriously and it happens like all of a sudden. i guessed i talk too much just now and blurt out all of any possible words just now. will be updating soon. stay tuned to my tumblr ok.

-end of crap-

Tumblr baby...

2009-12-08T21:28:00.002+08:00

click here for my tumblr

hakuna matata

2009-12-04T15:20:00.002+08:00

im just feeling good today, mumy say i could use her external hard disk, which is 500gb, haha!! finally i got a place to store all my korean stuff, and plus movies. wahai adik2 ku, jgn jeles ah, kita share juga tu, dun worry, im a good unnie.

-end of crap-

ring ding dong

2009-12-02T21:10:00.005+08:00

elreena you must watch this, teletubbies dance shinee's ring ding dong, haha!!! my cute meter just blow away, haha!!!

-end of crap-

it's all about you

2009-12-02T00:38:00.003+08:00

title : invincible youth (kbs world)

ending theme song title : it's all about you

artist : mcfly

the main reason i post this video on my blog is not 100% purpose to promote korean stuff. its just that i like the concept that they used for the ending theme of this variety show. plus, credits to the photographer, it is a beautiful candid shot.

-end of crap-

can't stop, we won't stop

2009-11-27T23:26:00.002+08:00

just a brief update.

1. soon ill be updating pictures at my tumblr which is currently inactive, don't bother to find my tumblr. this blog will be a word blog, im much more used to this blog so ill be updating quite a lot of words here, haha!!!

2. ill be using my ~~dslr~~, haha, i wish, canon ixus which only 4 megapic to take some nice pic during my holiday at bandung.

3. still have about 4 subject which consist of eleven paper total, then ill be free...

4. im thinking of doing online mall during my 3months holiday which is after spm, but this thought only came up into my mind when i was on the way back to home from kb. i need to ask my parents first though.

-end of crap-

im still kyuhyunholic

2009-11-26T01:24:00.003+08:00

current status: not so clear about my future yet, spm is so not in my hand. mum and dad, forgive me for any possible outcome. im not sure about my spm result. still have another 4 subject to go and im off to bandung.

it tickles me that this guy used to be a model for a wig company, haha!!!

ps: wanie jan marah ah... scandal jak, aku janji nda kan duakan dia... hehe!!! (mcm ku knal wording tu wanie...)

-end of crap-

OH YEAH!! IM FEELING GOOD!!

2009-11-20T16:46:00.004+08:00

spm week, i know i shouldn't blog. but giv me a break. i need to rest my fellow up there in my head.

my recent super addiction, just like when i used to be so addicted to super junior, ss501 and ft-island. kpop haters, dont mind me ok, i just love this guys even when you say they look gay. mianhae...

MBLAQ

my recent supply of marijuana(mblaq leader,seungho)

ps: this guy is still number one in my heart

-end of crap-

bye bye part 1

2009-10-21T08:09:00.001+08:00

On hiatus.

update

2009-10-06T12:55:00.003+08:00

ss-ing using cikgu wan's laptop at counseling room.

-end of crap-

pancak pancak star ya...

2009-09-21T23:55:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

that was a great opening right?? haha!!! its a second day of raya, to be honest it was quite ordinary raya compared to last year's raya. anyway, special shoutout to my unnie, FAIRUZ AMNI DATU ROSMADI, happy 20th birthday on the 20th of september(9) 2009 which is yesterday. we did some celebration and hope you will be success in anything that you do. how many 20 and 09 you can find in her birth date, hehe!!!

i love shinee and ft-island, i dont care if you think they gay, i love them, haha!!!

-end of crap-

time to love

2009-09-17T23:35:00.004+08:00

-driving class scene-

(me/khal/tutor)

tekan break jgn lupa tekan cludge...

*enjin mati* sorry...

nda pa...

kay, jgn lupa tekan cludge(belum abis ckp)...

*enjin mati lagi* sorry...

nda pa...

pegang stereng tgn jgn bersilang...

*tgn tersilang* sorry...

nda payah la ko ckp sorry balik2 ba (laughing+frustrated)...

owh, ok2, sorry...

haha haha...

after saying sorry for quite some times, i replaced the word sorry with "opps"... haha!!!

since wanie did her raya speech, i would like to say a few words too. selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin kepada semua umat islam yang meraikannya. speech ni di tujukan kepada semua umat manusia yang saya telah terumpat ka, terkasar bahasa ka, terkasi sakit hati ka, semua la benda yang menyebabkan anda semua menyimpan dendam terhadap manusia biasa yang bernama NADIA AINI DATU ROSMADI, tidak kira umat islam mahupun yang bukan islam, 10 jari saya susun ikhlas maaf di pohon. hope u guys have a great time during this festive season and happy holiday to those who didnt celebrate raya. yup i agreed with wanie, this is my last raya as a school student, i might not be here with my family for next raya, so i just wanna have fun with my beloved family and friends. semoga Allah memberkati kita di hari yang mulia yang bakal menjelma dan amat dinanti2kan oleh semua umat islam. for those who didnt puasa for the whole ramadhan, its never too late for taubat. sementara masih sempat ni titiskanla air mata taubat anda, dan bagi mereka yang sudah berpuasa selama sebulan, alhamdulillah. once again, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!!!

raya is just around the corner

2009-09-16T17:23:00.006+08:00

its holiday today, and yesterday was holiday for me too, i escaped school. damn excel... i want raya a.s.a.p.

ive been addicted to this song for a long time, but i didnt know that the lyrics was so mushy-mushy, haha!!! still love it anyway, onew sounds so great in this song, hehe... enjoy...

ps: im gonna have tumblr sooner later, but not now, im keeping my priority toward this blog first, ill have tumblr maybe after spm...

-end of crap-

oh my super girl...

2009-09-14T19:47:00.006+08:00

"maka sesiapa yang mengunyah najisnya sendiri, maka mulut merekalah yang akan berbau busuk..."

-quote from unfamous author that never publish her unfinished book entitled "Mencari Payung Biru di Ufuk Timur", Amalina Hazwani-

how was my intro, did it sound like a quote from mahatma gandhi? nice kan wanie, i should do that more often to improve our bm, haha!!!

annyeonghasaeyo, a propper greeting at least would be nice, dont u think so?? so spm trial was officially over today with my favourite subject, mathematics. i had a great time answering it, why cant bio phys and chem be as easy as maths??? well, i guess that's what you call life. nothing as easy as you thought it would be and on the other hand, nothing as hard as you thought it would be, right? why am i saying this? its just my personal opinion, tiada kaitan dengan mereka yang masih hidup atau yang sudah mati, cuma sesetengah orang saya sudah anggap mereka mati walaupun mereka masih berlegar-legar di hadapan anak mata saya pada setiap hari yang membosankan. (dang, what the heck was that, haha!!!)

didnt i mention the bad news? i was supposed to be happy when trial end so that i can focus more on my real spm. excel exam was up right after trial, dang it. i dont care eh eh eh eh eh about excel, so im gonna escape school tomorrow. wanie and wash are coming to my house tomorrow to sleep(?), so i guess i should just clean up a bit. its been awhile since ive been cleaning up my room properly. kemas sikit2 jak, skadar aku jak yg rasa selesa, suda la...

i want to write more, but im out of words. owh yeah, suju m has released their comeback single super girl, so untuk tontonan semua, just watch the video. it sounds much better, doesnt sound like cekai style, i have to admit its pretty catchy. enjoy...

super junior M - super girl

as always my personal brand of marijuana (haha, lol!! mcm edward la knun...), Kyuhyun look and sounds hot, hehe!!! not to forget henry, he's cute and im loving him too!!

-end of super crap today-

anger much

2009-09-10T15:23:00.004+08:00

worst fact of the week:

1. physics was sucks. i mean it wanie, with a capital S. dun wanna think and talk about it anymore. i swear that i went for Pn Low's tuition class only for the sake of passing for spm. school's phys??? i dun giv a damn.

2. jaebeom is out from 2pm. so antis, feel satisfied now? hope u are, coz i had a great feeling jay will be back with 2pm sooner or later. jay, hwaiting!!! (sincerely from hottest from malaysia...)

3. does it make any difference, try read this statement and take a close look.

- ~~meniru secara terang-terangan~~

- ~~meniru secara senyap-senyap~~

it doesnt right?? the case is here, i cheat during exam, and so do you. u face is way too thick to make those comments about me and my friends, saying that we meniru terang2, u are in the same case with me darling. i cheat, so do you. cheating without people knowing is still cheating. it doesnt make any difference. call urself educated, i dont think so. ~~suda la racist~~...

4. i will score chemistry for spm. i swear i will, and i started to love chemistry already. special thanks to cikgu annizan, i managed to answer chemistry for spm trial way better than i used to.

-end of crap-

tired

2009-09-07T21:19:00.003+08:00

its trial week. but i desperately need to talk to my blog. i hate certain situation. makes me felt left out. i never make them felt like that and yet they did that to me. all of a sudden im the one being left out(well, not so sudden after all, ive been in those kind of situation before). yes, im battling with my emotions right now. stress was all over me and sometimes i cant handle it. i get sad and pissed off about any single things. even if its a small microscopic things. i have emotional disorder right now. someone please help me. i cry because of small things. but to me it was a big thing.

-end of crap-

i hate this part of life

2009-09-04T13:51:00.003+08:00

my first post for this month, happy 1st year anniversary my deary blog. u've been a good friend of mine(im serious). i sound so emo, u wanna know why...?

i just hate this part of life, when someone whom u care about left u. im missing ponyo already. i was so excited to see you every day when i just got back from school. i didnt even get the chance to know ur gender, i was about to ask mum to bring u back to the vet to identify ur gender. too bad, its too late. i miss u my dear friend, i swear im crying when im writing this post. RIP my dear ponyo, u will always be in my heart. (i know it was just hamster, but i have a heart u know, im sad.)

im not in a mood right now. gtg for driving lesson.

-end of crap-

im still alive baby!!!

2009-08-30T15:58:00.003+08:00

finally im updating my blog. its not like i get into a serious studying, infact i didnt even study. well actually i did but only at tuition class. im worried like hell right now. damn. im doing my update maybe twice a month starting from now, i need to stay away from the comp(blogging to be exact), or else i might ended up bad in my spm(nauzubillah). anyway, SALAM RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK to all the muslims in the world, may we all get our blessing in this beautiful month. selamat berpuasa!!! (^-^)

-end of crap-

PONYO!!!

2009-08-21T20:14:00.005+08:00

first come first, we had a disection thingy in biology class today, combination of 5a and 5b student. edna called her mom and asked her to buy us any ugly, thin and not cute hamster so dat we could disect it for study purposes. but when the hamster arrived, it was the cutest creature on earth. ponyo is the name given by wanie, dont ask why. i will post ponyo picture later coz right now he/she is still sleeping. (believe me dat thing look so cute right now, haha!!!)

just to promote our newly released mv, if u wish to watch the full mv, go to napi's facebook(click). here's some of the screen capt from the video, let the picture do the talking here.

(upper line from left) khairul, wash, adam, khal, me, syafiq

(lower line from left) jason, wanie, napi

special shoutout :

Happy 48th birthday to my beloved girlfriend, FARIDAH HAJI JAAFAR (15th of august). May God bless u, and may u have a good life in future. Stay healthy and beautiful, haha!!! (sorry for the late wishes, internet have been down for pass few week and ive been busy.)

kyuhyunnie!!!!!!!!!!
-end of crap-

confession of a not so broken heart

2009-08-14T16:06:00.002+08:00

-school-

overall comments about the photography session : some of them were good coz they give their full cooperation, some of them were sucks coz keep on babbling about how much time did they waste just because of waiting for their queue to take a picture. im gonna talk bad about one teacher, i dont give a damn if he/she gonna read this or some other people will tell him/her about this, im sick of facing such a brainless people. call urself who educate other people, but when it comes to something very common and normal, u cant even think properly and talk professionally. blaming the photography ajk or to be exact, blaming me infront of my vary eyes saying dat "kenapa kamu bagi masuk class ~~l6k2~~ dulu, dorg lambat dorg la last ambil gmbar. korg jgn buang masa saya mengajar, class saya ni nak stpm dah, korg tu baru spm je..."

so here it goes my lovely ckgu _ _ _ _ _ _ and this one stupid brainless guy who keep on saying "stpm lagi penting dari spm ba kn ckgu", who was backing up his teacher all the way. tell you something, sorry if we, the ajk in charge didnt manage the timetable properly until you wasted your precious time teaching your beloved students. as you know, the schedule for photography session on wednesdey was delayed due to the perasmian bulan kemerdekaan and the photographer was late for 5-10 minutes. so as a teacher, you should act like a matured grown up adults and should not blame us if there's any delayed schedule, its not like we didnt work efficiently or we purposely delay the schedule. i was about to reply what he say with this exact words "kalau ckgu nda bole tunggu lagi, pegi la balik kelas dgn kelas kesygngan ckgu. ckgu bknnya pnting sgt pn smpai kmi mau mrayu suru ckgu tggu sini. sya bole pggil ckgu lain utk replace gmbr ckgu kalau ckgu nda bole tggu lagi. ckgu lain ada yg tggu lebih setengah jam tda pn bagi complain apa2, ckgu pkir ckgu ni vip ka?? baru tggu brapa minit suda complain mcm bsuk mau kiamat suda. nama jak ckgu, bnda snang pn nda ble pkir ka??? ", but then i realised dat the person i was about to give out my anger was a teacher. so i decided to go away from dat place and find some serenity somewhere around the school compound.

i hate those kind of things. at least i expected those kind of things would only be given by peralihan class since some of them dont really speak english or malay and they are a bit slow compared to the other students. but it seems dat a person that give me a total crap was someone called teacher and a brainless ~~form6~~ guy. i repeat, ~~form6~~ guy, not peralihan guy,who was so damn big enough to think wisely. dang you all people. dont you know how tired we are handling this kind of things??? cant you at least say those stuff not in front of my eyes?? im not good when it comes to handling my anger. even peralihan class work pretty well with us, without even giving us any trouble. wat on earth is happening in this world.

i promised myself not to blog about bad stuff. but how am i supposed to do dat when people keep on bothering me? i dont care if the person who was bothering me was a students. but wat if a ~~teacher~~ the one who was bothering me?? i cant accept such unprofessional act from someone who was supposed to show a good manners to students. dang it. i hate myself for doing this, but i cant stand it.

i should stop rite now. this is so not a right thing to do.

-end of crap-

[updated] a piece of madness, crap and joy

2009-08-09T00:15:00.008+08:00

just got back from a hectic and tense day. its started with phys class where i get nothing, and then continue with phys tuition where i almost sleep. luckily khal woke me up. highlights of the day:

1. me and gaji got really tense up about the whole ffm thingy. gaji was like confused because people keep on asking him to do lots of things. i got pretty mad because someone was screaming at me for no reason. tell you what, i do scream when im angry, but i dont simply scream at other people when im not even mad at them.

2. okay dis is funny, even luqman and qilah said this to me. interact installation night is like a kids party. well they said that yesterday. fyi, even if im not one of interact members, im still well aware that it was not like prom type of party. it was a formal party to install the new BOD and this was said by qilah herself. some of the lower form student which are actually forbidden to go to the party, was desperately trying their best to get a ticket by using some of upper form student names. call me lame if i didnt like to go to that kind of event, but how low could you get in order to get tickets for some event that you are not allowed to go.

3. freaky mini merry go round, dang you!!! i hate that mini merry go round at 1b(not the one in bobo land, the one infront esprit), it creeps me out like hell(for some reason), dang you mini merry go round...

i love him and i dont care if its lame...

-personal-

suddenly i felt lonely watching w&g and f&d. i dunno why and how. suddenly i missed that ~~impossible person~~ which is way ~~far away~~ from me. i thought i did get over my tiny little feeling, but i guessed i didnt. suddenly it comes out and pop out of no where.

event of the week:
- 2009 photography session (incharge by w.a.n.k's, ben, napi and other ajk)
- opening ceremony for bulan kemerdekaan (scouts marching)
- last meeting for scouts which is not agm btw (khal and me thought of something to do for the scouts member)

-end of crap-

listen to my word

2009-08-07T17:45:00.008+08:00

i just got back from school. today was nice, had tons of laughter, esp during marching training.

basically today was so damn free. class were empty, i mean most of the time we didnt have our lesson. some of the teacher was not in school. i was hoping i could have pj class today but too bad, we dont have any pj class. next week will be hectic again. photography session will be held next week.

nadia : kamu march lawa ba, tapi KAMU ni kuat main...
all : KAMU??? sapa yang ketua...
nadia : kamu march lawa ba, tapi KITA ni kuat main...
all : baru la ngam...

special shout out to my beloved boyfriend (a.k.a. my daddy), DATU ROSMADI DATU SULAI,4th of august 2009...

happy 47th birthday to you dad, may god always bless you and give you a good health. stay strong and stay healthy, we (mummy, kak yus, me, jureen and nina)love you so much. once again, happy birthday!!!

-end of crap-

delayed

2009-08-03T20:59:00.004+08:00

i finished my bio project. still got so many things to do, i skipped bio tuition coz i need to give priority to some other things first. i was suppose to do my update yesterday but i missed it bcoz i was busy editing my bio project.

currently im addicted to this song, it was nice and im lovin it. ill update later when i have something good to say. im kinda out of words right now.

snsd-my child

-end of crap-

(updated) im updating!!!

2009-07-31T17:18:00.008+08:00

yes finally, it was worth waiting, haha!!! im doing my first update for this week. there's just too many things have been happening in school this past few days, i hope i get to list every single things dat i would like to say or to be more precise, write. one short note, this post will be longer than usual coz i compiled almost every single things dat have been happening since monday, if u hate reading, just click the x button up there.

-school-

school was normal, again. a few things pissed me off, like someone who abandon his/her girlfriend/boyfriend for some other girl/boy. its just sad. dat someone doesnt deserve to be treated like dat, she/he was a nice person, just cant imagine someone so good being paid with such a horrible things. i hope dat person is okay. let me try to remember if there's anything else dat pissed me off...(thinking). well i guess i did make someone pissed off, i guess it was khairul. i was jokingly screaming at him "kenapa ko tidak pg training marching, bukannya ko pndai sgt marching pn...(i said it in joking tone, but i guessed he didnt really get it)". then he starts to scream back at me, but in a good way though, "ba yalah yalah...", and then he was quiet almost the entire time. man, i felt guilty, i didnt mean it dat way. last time it was jason, i was jokingly said something about scouts t-shirt, but he suddenly pissed off and saying "nasib ko ppuan owh, klu nda kn...". people tend to or will get my jokes wrongly. so my sincere apologies to khairul. khal if ur reading this tell him dat im sorry, i didnt mean it dat way. usually i dont really care if people get the wrong idea about my jokes, but recently i thought i should just keep myself down when it comes to jokes coz i dont like hurting people even if i didnt do it purposely. ui khairul, sorry ba...

i should just stop joking around. maybe dats why people hate me in any form. dang it, i was just joking without having any idea it will be offensive to someone.

enough with those emo stuff. i had a great time with my friends even though it is an exam week. believe me, i screw almost all of my paper. im still wondering when will i start to study seriously for spm, im getting scared everyday, but i just cant seem to gain my mood for study. im gonna pray harder so dat GOD will help me with HIS power to give me some of studying mood. cewah, serious gila aku preaching ni, haha!!! ui wanks (any one out of 4 of you), give me something so dat im motivated to study eh, like saying stuff like "klu ko blajar tul2 kn, knpom kita dpt wat kita pnya wisma wanks kn2??", those kind of things maybe at least will give me motivation to study, haha!!! gila eh...

thursday, which is yesterday, me and both of my lil sis got badly splashed by the rain. we were damn wet, seriously damn wet. we stopped in front of mayang, thinking wether we should go to school or not. me and nina decided to call my dad and went back home coz we were totally wet. im quite surprised dat jureen decided to go to school and went in for her pmr trial. good job lil sis, i did asked mum to send you a slipper, but dat school guard was just so damn blur and he didnt even pass the slipper to you. luckily you were clever enough to borrow surau's slipper and luckily i went for chem tuition dat evening and went back to school to get my gisele bundchen, if not i would be crying out loud if lost my slipper. pity wanie and wash who was waiting for me in front of the school gate dat early morning to buy karipap. sorry guys, i promise we will get our karipap together next time. btw today i went and get some karipap with khal and jureen outside school. so i guessed dat will be our new routine. hehe!!!

dang it, i guess there's just so many things dat happened in school dat slipped through my mind. i cant seem to remember anything right now.

-personal-

personal column again?? haha, right now there's just no exact personal feeling dat i felt towards other people or towards the opposite sex. i admit i do admire someone in school recently, but i just love admiring people from far, u know, seeing someone whom you admire in school everyday. admire doesnt always meant to be u love dat someone, it can be ur instinct of wanting to become friend with dat someone. i always have those kind of admiration. maybe because it is my big exam year, im giving myself a priority. or shall i say i dont really want to see my parents disappointed in me. all i want is for them to be happy then i will be happy. happy to them is seeing me getting my results with flying colours. its not like they will only love me if i get a good result, i just wanna show them im capable of anything and be proud of their daughter. man, if its father's or mother's day, they should just read my post in order to know how much i love them. im not good with expressing those words towards someone whom i love or care about. hey daddy and mummy, if you happen to read my blog which i dont think it will happen cause u guys are a bit IT BLIND (buta it, i didnt mean it in bad way ok, dont get me wrong...), just so u know u guys are the most important person in my life, so i love you guys so damn very2 the much. see, told you im good with writing nice stuff for them, but not saying it.

-random-

another favourite column, just a random column. i browse through my photobucket album which i can categorised it as one of my accounts yang bangas and i found some of my old favourite things. some of them were so memorable and suddenly i missed all of those old days.

this pic was taken when i was in form 2.
(i was still wearing specs to school, wanie was still not in tudung, nothing much different about pearl, shaw hair was still damn long, jason look so much like cinabeng with those spiky hair, khal was not in the pic and look at wash she was still damn skinny, just look at her face, haha!!!)

the siblings dat i adore the most, haha!!!

my favourite anime show, kyou kara maou.

ian watkins, lostprophets vocalist. i was madly in love with him last time, hehe!!!

gif image made by wanie, it was sweet, hehe!!!

i missed him, rip mao mao...=(

friendly japanese creature who came to visits our school early last year, kaizuki(fyi he was damn friendly and talk too much which i dont understand anything he said due to his japanese accent).

ps:

told you this post will be long, haha!!! when i say it, i really do mean it... hehe!!!

-end of crap-

off for 4 days

2009-07-25T11:22:00.006+08:00

im not gonna update my blog starting tomorrow, i need to study for my ujian setara and start to get serious with my study for spm. my new blogging schedule is on friday and sunday starting next week.

things to do :-
- physics tuition at 12
- maths tuition at 2
- piano class at 4.40
- finish and publish my essay on the pearl
- finish all my undone homework
- revise any subject which is the exam for the subject is on monday

-end of crap-

100th post claps

2009-07-24T21:38:00.007+08:00

-schools-

school was fine, ordinary and nothing special. somewhere somehow i felt that im too lazy for anything and everything. GOD please keep me strong just for this time so that i can face spm in serenity and peacefully. AMIN.

-100th post-

to celebrate my 100th post, im gonna post some of pics taken from wanks day out at the beach for lalulintas training. it was fun, and filled with happy times.

wash : cute prisoner
khal : clueless prisoner
nadia : lunatic prisoner
wanie : missing in action

tukang isi minyak

im seriously laughing out loud (wanie and wash too)

another fun day at the beach

call me,haha!!

wash : another cute pose
wanie : control ayu pose
nadia : still doesnt know how to pose
khal : too much pose *wank's family*

me n khal

straw pic and buntut ayam pic by khal

-how to park your bicycle-
special tutorial by khaleeda, haha!!!

-end of crap-

cheers to you for criticising us

2009-07-19T23:18:00.004+08:00

im updating my blog, no matter what. coz something pissed me off. i mean not someone in my house. although im supposed to be studying right now, and although im officially retired from becoming a prefects, im still the school prefects until the last day im in the school. that means, when somebody say something bad about the prefects board, it means im part of it although literally it doesnt include me.

i mean, im not a great prefects. i tend to escape duties. sometimes i talk bad about my heads, but eventually it turns out that im still a prefects and that doesnt change with me doing all of that stuff. duties, such as spot checking. that is not what we want to do. those are the things that the disciplinary board asked us to do. its just a duty that makes students hate us. you may found out that certain prefects are abusing their authority or their power, and people tend to talk bad about us and even WRITE something bad about us. but not all of us like that. if u ask me to categorised all of the prefects, i am able to do so.

1st, as someone says that some prefects may have gone a bit far, too fanatical with their job. 2nd, someone who just wanted to do their job according to what they have been told to do. 3rd, someone that SOMETIMES love doing what they do, but get tired of it easily and tend to break so called the prefects rules. and lastly, someone who just wants the name of prefects for purposes of glamorous and popularity, which they are not even bother to follow the so called prefects rules.

im here to say that, students out there, please dont criticize us according to what you have in your mind. like i say before, dun judge and criticize. its up to you to judge us, but if u ended up criticizing us, that is wrong. we are just normal students too, who are so called "LUCKY", which in the prefects world, it doesnt seems so LUCKY, easy and same as you thought it would be. and it will never be the same. im not those fanatical types of prefects, but if someone critizice the people who i used to work with, i cant just stand and watching other people bashing us.

i still have some unfinished and unsatisfied business with the prefects board though. regardless of what people have said about us which is categorised as "THOSE STUPID PREFECTS", we've been through more. some of them called us anjing hitam, since we are wearing black blazer. so i guess you guys happy right now?? after putting all of those bad words towards us, feel satified right?? about those hair thingy, i just wish that lorna would announce tomorrow at the assembly that all boys must have their hair cut like the soldier(BOTAK). snang crita kan? why those teachers are cutting your hair off?? its because you boys doesnt seem to know the limit. the rules says that you must not keep a long hair, a rule is set and it is something that must be followed. if you guys hate being barbered by unprofessional barber (teachers), why bother breaking the rules. simple right??

im neither defending nor againts the prefects board. i just hate that human nowadays doesnt have sense of respect at all. u have the right to say what you want. like me, i cursed in my own blog, i talk bad about other people in my blog. but i didnt mention any names. although some people know the fact that im talking about them, but their name is not stated in my blog. please, just a piece of advice, if you wanna talk bad about something, just make it obvious and dont make it clear.

ps: see, i dont make my statement clear right?? it is obvious im talking about prefects, but it doesnt seems so clear though.

-end of crap-

unwanted

2009-07-18T12:29:00.007+08:00

just like what i promised, a not so loooong update. but its not really the update that i like or im eager to do, i mean, i just woke up and suddenly everything doesnt seems right. i just hope that my day will gradually getting better later.

-personal-

i like my personal column, it feels like im talking to a counsellor, its just that there is no answer towards my questions. suddenly i felt like ive become unwanted in one place that i felt is somewhere i really belong to. all of a sudden i was always left out when it comes to anything. im not talking this crap without any evidence. but the thing is, i cant even mention the evidence. people might know who am i talking about. it will cause some complete chaos. last few months, i always ask them to do this "something" with me. but all i get is a reject. i dun blame them at first, cause maybe they are not in the mood or something. i tried again on the next month, see whether they've gained their mood. zero. they still doesnt want to. but all of a sudden, when this someone came, all that someone have to do is ask, and pappp!!! they want to do it. im not angry that they tried to _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ but it failed, that's not their fault. im upset about how come when it comes to me, they were like dont even give a damn. when it comes to that someone, it was always a "yes" and no such things as "no". maybe after i leave this place for further study, they wont even missed me. im not sure if me myself means anything to them.

-school-

it was fine. finally its over. im no longer a prefects, technically. i get to spend some more time with my friends (i guess their place is where i belong the most) during recess.

ps:

all those story that ive mention above (in the personal column), none of it is about my wanks family. im just letting of something that have been bothering me.

-end of crap-

short update

2009-07-15T22:08:00.003+08:00

our class is getting an educational blog about the pearl, so do pay some visit. it is all worth it. btw ms sophia, nice way of teaching, i like it, hehe!!! (damn she rock u know...)

5amanah 2009 (click)

my blog (for the pearl)(click)

ps :

currently im busy with lots of stuff. piano exam, majlis penyerahan tugas pengawas, undone homeworks and having a runny nose. ill do some good and long update later.

-end of crap-

i dont want to know (?)

2009-07-10T16:55:00.003+08:00

just a short brief about yesterday and today, ill update this post after my piano exam trial.

1. although our retirement day is around the corner, i just dont get it, how did some of the prefects managed to get through for 2 years without getting themselves caught. im the only one who understand what im trying to quote here.

2. i have to admit i do have a bad anger management, i tend to get pissed of easily which im hating it too, but when it comes to fighting with a guy, that is something that a girl should not do. i mean, come on, although ur angry, just so you know that nobody wants to know that u angry, so dont fight back, especially if its involving fighting and screaming to a guy.

-end of crap-

im feeling the love

2009-07-07T20:00:00.008+08:00

-today-

i skipped admaths tuition today(luckily we finished covering the form5 chapter), my siblings went away to penampang to watch the folklore international dance with my dad, my mum is away at melaka and surprisingly i missed her, im physically tired cause today we went all over the school to promote our class cheese cake which eventually our selling turns out quite good. we got 10 pre-order cake and that was only wash's cake.

it is confirmed that our majlis pelantikan pengawas for 2009/2010 session and majlis penyerahan tugas bagi pengawas sesi 2008/2009 is on next friday which is on the 18th of july. ive been waiting for that day since ever. being a prefects since i was in form1 was a great thing, but at the same time i felt burdened by all my duty.

for all those prefects for 2009/2010 session, i wish u guys the best. tahan hati jak la bila kena caci ka, maki ka, thats the cons of being prefects. people always thought that prefects are the most annoying thing in the world, but its just that we're only doing our job, and the pros is, we got a kokum marks which is very useful in future, right??

things to do:
- finish my bm karangan
- prepare 2 biscuit tins for azrie's and our group for pasaria
- remind dad once again to buy penyapu for physics tomorrow
- revise any subject

-end of crap-

back to reality

2009-07-05T16:55:00.002+08:00

ive watch she's the man twice, its been a long time since the last time ive watch it. channing tatum, another picture of perfection, hawt hawt heat baby!!! im in love with him.

nothing much to babble about, im out of words. seriously out of words. im just happy that my exam result improved a bit, not that much though, but its one of my great achievements so far. im in the 31st placing in the class. for me it is an improvement.

-end of crap-

so much of a drama

2009-07-03T19:21:00.005+08:00

-school-

last week and this week wasnt a good week, why did i say so???

1. first of all, last week during pj somebody fight with someone sampai sumbing ba kening, should i laugh??? no, i shouldnt laugh, if i laugh karma would be happening, its a big no no. it was not really a serious fight though, but i never knew and no one would ever guess that 5AMANAH students can get into a brutal fight. pakai kayu lagi tu. the ending of the story??? i dunno, gantung la. but then one of the obvious ending was someone got a stitches on his/her eyebrow.

2. last wednesday during kokum, wanie got hit by a ball, directly infront of her face. just now during pj, same thing happened, hit by a ball and her lips was bleeding. after pj, while we were doing our photography work, a thick big glass fall down directly on wanie's head. me and wash got some minor bruises, but wanie, my owh my... i really hope nothing bad will happen to her.

3. chang ei ling (i dunno how to spell her name) got hurt during pj, some bruises on her mouth, arms and her legs, it was bleeding like hell according to one of my classmate.

-random review (westlife, backstreet boys, n'sync) -

im listening to westlife, backstreet boys and n'sync rite now. kinda missed the memories of loving them like hell, haha!!! but im more of westlife fans.

westlife-unbreakable

backstreet boys-i still

n'sync-god must have spent a little more time on you

-end of crap-

all about me

2009-07-02T22:04:00.008+08:00

-school-

today was normal, again. seriously, i started to wonder how would i felt when i officially leaves all saints. being in all saints for 5years was a mixture of everything. im saying this because i swear i will not return to my school for form6. i mean, im not criticizing all the form6 students, but i felt that im too old to be back for school. maybe i will return to my school, perhaps as a trainee teacher?? haha!!! lol!!! i was once interested with that career... and btw, i wanna retire from being a prefect eh, i cant stand it anymore, i wanna have my last few months at school, being a normal students, or shall i say, aku nda mau jadi kuli skola lagi ba... pnat...

i had a kpop talk wit elle during my recess duty, it was fun, cant blame us for being one of the E.L.F, at least i got a friend to talk about it other than khal. i was shocked with wanie's statement on last saturday at the beach, she was saying "masi jg ko dengar lagu orang putih ni??" when she was checking my phone and browsing through my gallery. i admit i got pretty addicted with kpop music, but still, kris allen is one of my favourite right now, haha!!! i still listen to international music, haha!!! btw elle, i really hope suju 2nd asia tour will be held somewhere in malaysia, haha!!! lets pray for it,lol!!!

after school, wanie wash saif and me were standing in front of the photocopy shop, trying to get kuma2 out from the machine (im not sure what that machine called, we called it "main putar2") which cost only RM1 per egg(?) a.k.a shell(?). okay, me myself didnt really get what im trying to say. anyway it was fun, i get a blue kuma2. i got a pink one at first, but im not really a big fan of pink, im still a fan but not those fanatic one, so i was hoping that i could get the blue one. when it was wanie's turn to putar2, saif help her up and get the blue kuma2. so i decided to switch it with wanie, haha!!! it was wash idea to do that stuff, she was trying to get one kuma2 for nisha, her lil cousin.

chemistry tuition was okay, we had a great talk with cikgu annizan. he was teaching us chap9 form4. suddenly a fart talk become one of our topics, he was telling us about his classmate who fart until one of his other classmate vomited due to the unbearable stench of the ammonia gas, haha!!!

-pictures-

i have to admit a blog without a pictures??? it will be too plain, so i decided to upload some pictures which was taken past few weeks ago. some of them were recent image though...

W.A.N.K's photo, snapped on the last day of school last year (saif was the last minutes subtitute for shivonna,haha!!!)

recent picture, most of the pic have been uploaded by my lil sis on her blog. nway nina done a great job with the editing, although it was an amateur editing style.

both pic were snapped few weeks ago, at addmaths tuition, haha!!! nway, jason is a dorky type when it comes to taking pictures,haha!!!

told you im not a good camwhore, haha!!! see my finger tips at the corner of my pictures, haha!!! snapped at esprit, while waiting for my mum outside the fitting room.

-end of crap-

today...

2009-07-01T22:56:00.003+08:00

- park jung su's birthday(super junior leader), he's old but still cute, way cute, haha!!!

- form5 students went hectic today about national service stuff. all i have to say is, its not like ur gonna die if you go for it, i mean, im not saying this because i didnt get in, but then back to reality people, just take it as experience ba, after all its not that bad. nobody's dead while their in camp, im refering only to the camp in sabah's area, not semenanjung.

- school was fine, as in fine i mean nothing really pissed me off today, it was quite normal.

- accounts tuition was hectic, again with same reason, national service. btw my dear PEARL, haha!!! kesian la ko masuk plkn, i wish you the best, same goes to MIZAN too, haha!!!

- btw MR WONG FU, thanks for lending us your phone and credits and let us check our national service status. (i never knew that he was that kind, my classmate told me that the checking thingy for the almost the whole 5amanah students, cost almost RM10)

-end of crap-

re-edit : how to save a life

2009-06-29T15:49:00.007+08:00

ok, ive decided to re-edit my post, its a bit crude just now, i mean the language. owh ya, i should try tai chi so that i will find the true meaning of serenity and live a healthy live, haha!!! lol...

btw,i have new blogging schedule. since cikgu susan will be off the school for about 1 1/2 month i guess, so our 4 period of chemistry will be replaced with all those after 1.30pm classes. so that means i get to go back home early at monday and tuesday. whereas thursday and friday evening, im having my chemistry tuition on thursday and on friday, i was thinking of coming for extra class for chemistry tuition since my chemistry is not that good. plus ill be glad to company wanie to replace all those classes that we have missed during holiday. owh my, i had a great feeling that my chemistry will be disaster if cikgu susan didnt come back to school a.s.a.p.

i cant think of a better schedule rite now but i guess i just update my blog whenever i want to. haha!!!

btw, sorry for the late wishes, happy birthday to all those june babies, haha!!!

6th of june - Nazrin Ismail
22nd of june - Amalina Hazwani (wanie ku, haha!!! tua suda...btw love ur present)
26th of june - Mohd Nadzrin Shah
29th of june - Jason Jonathan James

-end of crap-

ill go by the name of nadia

2009-06-28T17:49:00.006+08:00

i accidentally ter-delete my old skin. damn it!!! i was doing something with the template and then suddenly i kinda got mixed up with everything that im doing, suddenly my blog skin vanished!!! damn it again!!! anybody who was suppose to be in my link list, please tell me if i missed out your url, coz i cant remember all those people who was suppose to be in my list.

camp camp camp, damn it, too bad we cant have it. for those of you who was suppose to join the camp, a sincere apologies from me as the troop leader, all i can say is im so sorry. i was so sad when wanie and wash told me that on friday night, they were drowning in their imaginary camp. owh god, im so disappointed with myself right now. how i wish i could just turn everything back into march, i should have just force cikgu laini to go on with our camp. or shall i make my wish easier, i should just refused when adiba elected me as the asst. troop leader, because on that moment i never knew that im the one who will be the troop leader, which something that is not so easy as you think it will be.

-end of crap-

i snezzed(?) my brain out

2009-06-25T20:53:00.004+08:00

just a short post, rite now im not in the mood for anything. when i say anything, it does mean everything. even studying, tv, blogging and etc.

event of the month (july)

-report card day on the 4th
-pasaria on 11th
-3rd grade practical piano exam on the 16th

ive been very moody pass few days, not for sometimes but almost everytime. im going through a emotional disorder, which im hating it very much. i tend to scream at people easily, and i knew something from my apprentice that people will judge me badly on their first impression. maybe because of my face, i dont smile that often (i only smile brightly to my friends and family, isnt it obvious they are the one that im comfortable with??). so the conclusion is, blame it on my "air muka", haha!!!

btw all 5 amanah beloved(?) classmates, if u guys agree about those tshirt thingy, u guys gave me a reason to love all of u all,again. since im having trouble trying to love my own class due to some of my classmate with oh-so-not-cooperative-attitude(not all of them, just a few).

-end of crap-

facts of the week

2009-06-24T22:37:00.003+08:00

1. i got 2 prefects trainee at once, what an amazing phenomenon, cause i usually didnt get any, it is because im not a good mentor, haha!!!

2. i have to plan super interesting activity for scouts member, since our camp have been cancelled, i need to regain my respect back.

3. i think pasaria will be quite havoc, which im feeling that i will look foward more on pasaria, since scouts camp have been cancelled. (sob3)

4. just so you know that, when you are older than me, that doesnt make you the senior in the school, you only have been in the school for like what, not even two weeks, and i was like what, almost 5 years spending my tyme in that school. so dont you dare, showing your b*tch face at me and telling me what to do, like saying this quote "why you guys always have to find trouble for yourself???". i was about to scream at you back, but then i realized that since you are older than me, i will still show some of my respect which the fact is you dont deserve even a piece of my respect, okay???

-end of crap-

nadia got cursed by her own words

2009-06-19T19:19:00.007+08:00

-event of the week-

so its teacher's day, today, yeah... ive been busy with the rehearsal and anything have to do with teacher's day stuff, my week was pretty packed to be exact. but the thing that ive been looking forward for just as soon as school reopens is not teacher's day or school pasaria, scouts camp. hey there people that was suppose to be involved in scouts camp, im sorry to say that our camp have been cancelled, AGAIN!!!not fully cancelled yet but for now im trying my best to fit in my personal schedule and school's schedule with the new date. and when i discuss the new date with some of my committee members, it turns out that another event will be held for the following week which is report card day. why cant they make it on friday instead of saturday, saturday is my tuition day, damn that old lady, i swear even after the beautiful day of teacher's day i will never like her because she always ruin my plan, which is my plan is not for my own good, but it is for the sake of my troop ba old lady, why cant you understand ba!!!!!!!!!!!!

scouts camp original date : 8, 9 and 10 of june

isnt this date was more than a perfection, its just after exam and its holiday, what a perfect day to camp out and suddenly that old lady who never give a damn about scouts stuff since the first year she have been the ~~school principle~~ pura-pura la ko knun kan mlibatkan diri dgn aktiviti kami, as if i will respect you even after ~~30 years of teaching~~. seriously, im not gonna care even if any all saints teacher read this, i dun give a damn, im sick of my own school, klu org sabah bilang pembote jak kmu smua. ~~palat~~...

another planned date for scouts camp : 26, 27 and 28 of june

so okay, this date was okay for me, its just that if i do the camp on non-school holiday week, majority of those people who joined the camp will not come to school on monday, including me, because last year i was badly ill just after the camp, not physically ill but mentally. so i discuss wit ckigu patimah, she did asked me to reduced the schedule for the last day, and ask them to go back home early. so i did edit the schedule and it turns out quite okay. and then here's the big part, on the first day school reopen, that old lady announce there will be a class tambahan on the 27th of june, which we cant do the camp again...

another newly planned date for scouts camp : 3, 4 and 5 of july

it was new, we plan this thing just now, right after the teacher's day celebration. and i get some news from shawati that on the 4th, report card day will be held.

damn it, i really hate this part of the year, it makes me cry again, and all of a sudden last year's scene where i got hurt badly was rolling back through my mind, from the introduction untill the ending. i dont want people labelled me as a super stupid troop leader. i wish that someone who always comfort me about scouts stuff was here to help me. hey bro, i need you word of wisdom. i hope you people would be able to see how sincere i am and how dedicated i am towards my pose as a troop leader. im trying my best. i hate when people look down at you when you are not able to do something that other troop leader have been doing well. its not that i didnt try at all. i used to do that, i used to criticize adiba, our former troop leader. i used to say that she's no good compare to other troop leader. but after being one of them, now i know how hard it is her job. i felt like im being cursed by my own words. when ur not the one who was holding the pose, dont you dare to say anything even if you are part of the committee members, because you will never know how does it feel like to be in that pose until you are in that pose.

-end of crap-

last day of holiday

2009-06-14T15:14:00.003+08:00

-holiday-

1st of all, currently my mum is in the jungle(yup, i couldnt believe it too), and my aunt, angah, at jakarta. so technically, only my dad, me, jurin and nina left at home. the best part was, daddy have a great time with his princesses at the mall, haha!!! i bought super junior sorry sorry album, it was just for my self satisfaction and to complete my collection, im a fan, so what?? and now that i know why the goverment asked us not to buy pirated cd's and dvd's. i bought boys over flower dvd's, hell yeah its cheap, rm30 only. the tauke kedai play it, hell yeah it is damn terang and the quality, hell yeah thumbs up. but then, when i tested it at home, of coz it is the same as what i have seen in the shop, but the subtitle, of coz, got english malay chinesse and thailand, pilihla mna satu ko mo. the sad part was, it was a subtitle that was directly translated, like for example, sunbae is what you call for someone who is older than you are, the english subtitle for that part was "elder generation" whlie the malay one was "golongan lebih tua". another funny subtitle was "you is who??" the malay subtitle was sucks too man, i mean come on, i need a good subtitle to watch any movies that are not in english or malay, damn it. okay i babble too much, i need to rest a bit...

-school-

school reopens tomorrow, part of me was anxious to be back to school, part of me like "whatm can i just have another week of holiday please..."

-end of crap-

random : kyuhyun (^-^)

2009-06-11T22:28:00.005+08:00

credits : xsingingxfaeriex

im in love with kyuhyun, yes, haha!!! he sounds like typical korean singer with those fantastic voice, but since im a fan of him, i think he's much better than any other korean singer, hehe!!! sorry, its just my own personal opinion, haha!!!

-end of crap-

H-O-L-I-D-A-Y

2009-06-10T22:39:00.005+08:00

-yesterday-

yesterday was wanks day out, finally. i think dis is the first time dat wanks really do spend our time together from the beginning of the day,haha!!! no need for me to explain, wanie did explain the whole thing in her blog, go click on her. the peak of the day was when we spend hours at padini, haha!!! i saw farza too. khal was like i want this, i want that but she say later with her mum then she will get what she wants. wash was like i want this yesterday but tesalah beli, i almost bought it yesterday when i went here but they out of size. tau2 ada pula size ko tu kan wash, ko jak nda membongkar, haha!!! bowling was nice, and then suddenly wash come up with "mrsm boy" stuff, haha!!! bodo2 jg ko ni wash, saya suka,haha!!! kak yus, saya ada suda saya punya hyunnie dr mrsm, haha!!! lol!!!

-today-

today was nice, i was suppose to have piano lesson but my piano teacher were sick, hope u'll get better soon. so, my mum took us to 1b to find her pants. we went to esprit and jurin was like a crazy girl, looking at every single tops in esprit, she was like, auwwww, aku mau, aku mau. haha!!! saw jaebom's style vest, i was like damn it, i want. haha!!! then we walk around 1b. went into padini, again,haha!!! went to fos, it was like nothing there. last but not least we went to dome to feed our empty stomach, haha!!! the food was nice though, thanks to mumy!!!

-random review : mate-

i was sitting in front of the tv this evening, when i tune in to kbs world, i saw this band called mate, korean band. damn, i love them. their song was fuckin great, and plus the drummer was hot hot heat, haha!!! but personally, im more attracted to their song.

-mate-

ill post bout their profile later, cant seem to find it anywhere, haha!!!

isnt she's beautiful, hiding under the newspaper, hehe!!!

-end of crap-

wonbin oppa...

2009-06-06T20:30:00.004+08:00

ignore the title, when im trying to figure out a nice and suitable title for this post, that was exactly the words that popped into my mind. and when i was trying to spell popped, i spelled it pooped at first, haha!!

im bored,seriously. my mum conquered the tv again, watching tennis. tennis is the season that i hate the most, i dun hate the sports, infact i would love to learn how to play it, but i hate the fact that my mum watched it like she have been seriously involved with that sports. im a tv freaks when it comes to holiday, cause there's like what, tons of nice movies are played on the tv on a holiday season, especially on disney channel. i wanna watch brother bear, but my mum says she wanted to watch the final tennis tournament. well, she doesnt say it to my face though, she was talking to my lil sis who was so syiok watching transfomer on HBO.

i have nothing to post actually, im not in a mood. its been like what, too long since the last time i become a camwhore. i dun take self picture that much, im not a gud camwhore. the last time i become a camwhore, it was done by wanie's request to update my photo. i should put this on my wishlist, i want a semi pro camera. im not a pro yet, "someone" says that having a slr doesnt make u a pro photographer. yup, i have to agree with that person although i dont really approve his or her statement(suka ati org la mo pkai slr biar pn nda pro kn???).

i wanna post pictures on my blog, but i dun have any nice photo. nice and beautiful photos only comes to me during vacation. its been a while since my family went for a vacation. i really hope our trip to bandung at the end of this year will really become true. i crossed my finger tightly and pray for it, haha!!!

-end of crap-

i forgot to put a title...

2009-06-04T21:18:00.004+08:00

-now-

currently im waiting for star king to buffer, and watching series of tentei gokuen. i wanted to watch the whole series of proposal daisakusen, hana yori dango, my boss my hero and last friends. since its holiday, i wanna spent some quality time with the tv and dvd player, haha!!! i dun really have the chance to do so when school re-open, im gonna be busy with scouts camp and pasaria too.

-personal-

ok peeps, let me clear up about the personal subtopic thingy ok?? yup, i admit that i was in love with someone, but not exactly in love, its just another form of admiration, nothing much. it was not a big deal after all, i mean right now i have to admit that the admiration towards that someone eventually gone, u know, like vanished tiba2,haha!!! maybe bcoz right now, this stressing year, i dont really have time to care for others more than i care for my self. i mean, i need to learn to take care of myself first, the i have the right to take care of someone else. if i rephrase the sentence, it would be like this, i need to love myself first before i can love someone else,right? so khal,wash,wanie,saif and jason, semua clear suda la ah??? nda pyh la tau sapa, it doesnt even matter who's that person is. im thinking of getting boyfriend that can sing like kyuhyun,smart like kyuhyun,handsome like kyuhyun, owh, anything and everything about kyuhyun makes me fall in love,haha!!! or maybe my dream of getting achai with white ninja king will come true after all,haha!!! lol!!! so much for a day dreamer like me, dont mind that, ill pray that someday i will have my soulmate just the way i wanted them to be???(let it be kyuhyun please,haha!!!)

-cravings-

i really wanted to eat nasi emba since the first week of exam, but i didnt get the chance to buy it at jawa,damn it!!! last day of exam, i was hoping i could get some from the restaurant next to jawa, but wanks ended up eating roti canai and megi goreng at likas plaza,huhu!!! wanie, u owe me one plate of large size of nasi emba since u insist on eating at likas plaza,huhu!!! joke,haha!!!

-end of crap-

random review

2009-06-04T17:56:00.005+08:00

-random review on 2am and 2pm-

2am - without a heart

8eight and 2am - without a heart and confession of a friend

2pm - again and again(live)

just say that 2am is a bunch of singing angel and 2pm is bunch of dancing machine,haha!!! love jaebom's smile when the fan scream out his name,haha!!!

-holidays-

so i skipped one class of accounts tuition and two classes of phys tuition. its not that im lazy or what, part of it was that reason, but then when it is holiday, i dont have the mood for studying. what ever, i had enough of studying during exam's week, so its time for me to relax a bit, or else i might end up staying at bukit padang due to some major injuries and damages in my one and only not so clever brain.

i spent most of my time watching tv, vcd's and dvd's. it is quite surprising that i spent less time on the internet for blogging coz i find it a bit boring, for now. instead, i spent my time downloading some movies. ive watched pop weed sayong last night, or also known as body jumper. i watched it twice,once with my kazen ana and once with my little sister's, but me and jurin ended up watching 2days and 1night at kbs world, it was nice,haha!!! anyway, body jumper, it is a thai horror comedy movie and it was great, still remember the first time i watch it when i was in either primary 3,4 or 5.

i did spent some time watching some japanese drama that i have downloaded last year, it was nice. im gonna get some more movies and drama's to watch coz currently im addicted to tv more than the computer,haha!!!

ps : did i mention that im watching malay drama too? the title was 3 janda, awal and farid kamil is one of the actors in the drama,haha!!! im a tv freak for now, dont mind me for being so kili...

-end of crap-

wordless

2009-06-02T22:42:00.005+08:00

-super junior-

before i begin my post, i just wanna shout it out how much i love super junior!!! i know i sound so much like lala girl, but that doesnt stop me from loving suju. I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR!!!

im just expressing my love towards them, this is totally random, coz i got a cracked in my brain due to the exam, haha!!!

(yes, this might sound lame, but i dun give a damn!!! haha!!! and cheers to elle, she have been koreanized by suju, hehe!!!)

-holiday-

today was great, went to 1b with lots of people (khal,wash,aarieff,khairul,haziq,my kazens gaji and ana, my siblings jurin and nina,some of my lil sis's friends), im having a great time at bobo land and throwing some bowling at i dunno what's that bowling place called, haha!!! nite at the museum was great,and funny to be exact. and plus, ive been trying hard to fix my komp, seems like it has been attacked by worm,what ever. malas mau fix suda, better bring the komp to hospital before it get even worst.

ps: im not in the mood for words rite now, tired. tomorrow 3hours of phys tuition class and plus accounts class also.

-end of crap-

anger; theme of the week

2009-05-07T21:37:00.002+08:00

so i skipped blogging schedule yesterday, i was kinda busy. busy with scouts meeting, homeworks, schools, and desperately need my beauty sleep, not to forget study for exam. life...

-personal-

my dad did mention that, when we want something, we work for it. when we got it, something that we already had have be let go. i mean, we cant have everything in this life, its like when we gain something new, we will lose the old one. what im trying to say, these kind of situation does happen in my life, every day, without even me noticing it revolving around me. this is random, sometimes i think my life doesnt go the way that i wanted it to be.

i feel a lil bit depressed about my study, i didnt get enough sleep due to school business, some of my classmate are triggering my nerves and it is almost at the end where i can easily explode. people hate me when i get mad, but i do hate myself too when i get mad, its like some evil spirit possessed me. its not like im having a bad life or suffering from a malicious environment, but some other people just act they ruled this world and live on their own when the facts are this one world contains billions++++ of other people. racist, selfish and popular wannabe, exact words for some of the people that keep on building up my anger. yes, im facing this kind of people, in a small school, everyday. imagine if i travel the whole world, can you count for me how many times i did i have to face with this kind of people? maybe that's why im not feeling comfortable enough with my life, because im facing shitness every single day.

and one more thing, i know we got the freedom of speech. we got the right to say anything that we want to, and i agree 101% about it. but judging and and ended up comparing, thats not a right things to do. we may judge people in any ways we want, but dont compare them to other people, especially comparing them with someone who is related to you. as if ur the only one who got the best things in your life.

i hate fake people. who doesnt rite?? and i still cant believe that im facing so many fake people in my daily life. i mean, some people act like they know everything, but the fact is, they dont even know a thing. here some tips how not to be fake infront of your friends, wanks did practice this in our daily life. dont be a spoiled brat, try to be independent. and dont keep on asking for attention, asking other people to be with you 24hours but when u meet ur so called popular friends, you ditch us. thats not the way how friend should treat a friend. dont be selfish. dont interrupt your friend's conversation when u dunno what the hell they are talking about. this is random people, not dedicated to anybody in my life.

-school-

school was fine, actually im pissed with lots and lost of things, but im not gonna mention it again and again, puas suda aku tulis di atas sana. karang belubang keyboard komp ni oleh aku. damn. im really2 at the edge of my anger rite now. part of the interesting things that i wanted to write, has gone due to my anger and dissatisfaction.

-end of crap-

i love super junior!!!

2009-05-03T23:48:00.003+08:00

since im sitted in front of the comp editing the scouts camp paperwork, why dont i spend some time for a beautiful blogging, rite?? haha, watever...

so tomorrow and the day after i would be very busy, i have to nag the teacher about camp and so on, study for 2nd term exam, and im scared of it, haha!!! its like a death penalty for me, haha!!! btw, im excited for scouts camp, praying that it will really happen, damn... and as a troop leader, im only in charge of certain things, khal do most of the things although she is just one of the scouts committee members (AJK tertinggi), and im the leader, but its her hardwork. im not gonna disturb her about all the activities. to all the selected ajk, i have nothing to do with the selection, i only give khal yes or no, some little tiny microscopic opinion to help her, and the rest is her choice to choose u or not, to give u what she wants. not to forget khairul as her assistant.

im not good with handling scouts, people hate me for doing the right thing, apa lagi wrong things, agak2 la kan? sometimes i dun even get it, even some of them like last year, people that i thought would at least give me a break dun even understand me, im not talking about the big incident that hits me and khal okay. that person was suppose to be someone who is comforting me but ended up as someone that give me the most headache. this is random people, im not talking about one person here, jadi jangan terasa, malas aku ada kes terasa2 ni, haha!!!

watever, i crossed my finger tight, hoping everything would be better that last year.

i guessed thats all for now, its getting late and i still have tons of things to do. btw, i was suppose to follow napi, khal, mizan, adam and haziq to the hospital to visit someone, but i ended up not following them, because napi left me. its not his fault, its mine, i forgot to call him, haha!!!

~~[still with my impossible feeling towards someone impossible]~~

-end of crap-

coward : perfect name for you

2009-04-30T23:42:00.006+08:00

update, u know how much i love updating my blog, haha!!! random, that was just a random opening for my post, haha!!!

-yummy is another type of garfield-

so i just woke up from my long nap, haha!!! i slept approximately 6.30pm and i woke up around 11pm, my dad went to check me out and woke me up. then i went down to my mum's room, walk around the room like a fool, went to my mum's dresser and took my lense off [i slept with my lense],then went to my mum's toilet, when im out from the toilet, i saw yummy [stupid cat] was disturbing my mum, my mum was praying, ngam2 in front of my mum, on the sejadah, so i took him away. when i went to the komp, my mum ask me to feed him, so i took yummy to angah's room, pour in some frieskies in his very own bowl, but then i have to sit next to his bowl, sort of like i kasi kawan him makan la, so i patiently sit next to his bowl, yummy was like walking around angah's room and then come next to me and eat, and he keep on repeating the scene consecutively 4 times, then he sit next to me for real to eat. after that i have to take him to my mum's room, since my mum's room aircond was serviced, so he loves to sleep there, sejuk, he likes it. the conclusion is, yummy is nothing but a spoiled brat cat, royalty much, haha!!!

-school-

school was another picture of ordinary life, normal, pretty much packed with chemistry labwork, sometimes i love but sometimes i hate it. the situation in the lab was hectic, hot, smelly and again caused by the same reason, only those in 5a knows who why where or how, i know it was mean to do this but i cant stand it, no one can, even my classmate are not able to do so. i did helped the folio kerjaya team with their folio, it was nice to do the same thing like we did last year, im missing the moment, haha!!! if ur wondering why is my post title was like that, this time i didnt put the title with no reason or without a purpose or something, that title was meant for someone, who i can consider another person with chicken's butt mouth (mulut buntut ayam), someone who poured lots and lots of stupid words out of her/his mouth, but it turns out that you are nothing but a coward, nangis trus ba bila kena sound, haha!!! ok, that was mean, let me rephrase that in a good way, with only one glance people would say that u are one innocent creature, i mean, please stay innocent then people will appreciate u more, if u wanna be outstanding, then do it in a right way, then people will look up to you, believe me, it does work if u try. for this situation, i can consider myself neutral, that unknown creature did mention my name when he/she talked about my fren in a crude language, but ur just a kid so i let it go, plus it would be a total waste of time if i layan u. so the conclusion is, i dun hate u, but i dun like u either.

-personal-

yeah, i added another new subtopic for my post, ive been through some quite personal moments, when i say personal, no one knew it except for god, im pretty impressed with myself, i did manage to keep it to myself and not depending on my friends or what so ever, its not that my friend is someone that unreliable, i just want to keep it by myself. i went through an impossible feelings toward someone, so i took it away, vanished it by hard, so its kinda working, for now, but there's always gonna be a new entry, for me it was normal, but it was a feelings towards someone u wouldnt expect. i dun fall in love easily, and i didnt get over easily, but i manage to get over from the past. it took times for us to realize, right, i mean when we fall for someone? so i guessed i did realize it finally, but again, it was something that is way impossible, on some reason. when i say it is impossible, it means it is impossible by some factors. damn, i dunno why ive been so weird lately, i dunno why, seriously.

p/s : saif, kami rindu ko, cepat pulang ah, haha!!!

-end of crap-

voice within

2009-04-26T16:02:00.004+08:00

its been 6 days since the last time im doing update, but it was worth waiting, u know, waiting for the schedule, im disciplining myself to obey my personal rules, haha!!!

school was ok, neither bad nor good, it was normal to be exact, lots of things happen with great, weird, frantic, annoying, and infuriate moments, regardless of what happen, i actually enjoyed school within these various types of moments.

not much words to be poured here, i just felt like writing something, u know how much i love my mini hompy, its my favourite things of all, i love writing, its just that i love writing without using paper bcoz im a nature kind of person, i dun want the trees to be abused and i like writing without using pen or pencil, it makes my hand tired, so i prefer writing here, haha!!! but i dun consider myself as a journalist, perhaps my life journalist, bcoz journalist is not a rude writer which i am rude in my blog writing skills, maybe i am one of thousands freedom writer in this world, haha!!!

im looking forward on my scouts camping, with the presence of cikgu munif, i believed camp will be on, i mean i pray so that it will be really on, scouts is meaningless without camp, i just hope that this year camp will be great, although its a bit late but im trying my best to do my part as a not so great troop leader, and hoping that whatever malicious things that happened last year that terribly broke my heart wont be repeated again...

actually i do have lots of things to be said these past few days, but it slipped through my mind, so rite now im kinda out of words, haha!!! so my next update will be on thursday, write again soon...

-end of crap-

what happened??

2009-04-21T21:50:00.004+08:00

ok so i didnt really obey my rules of bloggin, but i have a reason bcoz... this coming thursday im gonna be at school and no going home early, for the sake of hari guru committee member meeting, im one of them, so i dun have time for bloggin on that day, haha!!!

2nd reason was, its only been the 2nd day of the week for schooling, but there's just too many things happened, damn, im sure im gonna miss school when i officially leave all saints[only on certain reason maybe], haha!!! some people are getting more and more annoying, some of my classmate and non classmate, i wont be mentioning the name, freedom of speech which is one of our advantages for being a malaysian citizens is no longer available, im not able to say what i want even in my own mini hompy, so i decided to be a good blogger, not to curse anybody, there's no such thing a this kind of right rite now coz everything that u say is wrong even by saying it is the only way to get over it,whatever...

just wanna post something, hey kid, how much daring could u get by saying those crude language to my friend, so cheap, damn, im cursing again, nnt ada lagi org reply post saya ni, man its hard not to curse on ur own blog la, thats why i keep on emphasizing these statement, if u hate what i wrote just leave and dun proceed,as easy as 1234 la bak kata plain white t's, apala u dis people...

okla, im gonna stop here, tons of things to do including dinner, a late dinner, haha!!!

-end of crap-

blogging schedule??

2009-04-19T21:50:00.003+08:00

from now on, i decided that i should do less bloggin, and more study *yeah right, its almost may and im still not ready for spm* and ive made my blogging schedule, yey!!! so im gonna update my blog only on thursday(school finish at 1.30pm for this day and i have no tuition class), and sunday(everybody loves sunday rite???)...

nothing much to say or to be exact, write, past few days was ok, busy with lots of stuff, btw i downloaded ares, wanie say its good, and it is gud, haha!!! i have a bad memories with limewire so that's why i didnt download these kind of stuff when i first got this comp, bad memory with the laptop, haha!!!

this cat was my 14th bday present, it turns out that she have the same characteristic like me, grumpy,huhu...

i love this, since ever, haha!!!

i watch a walk to remember again, it was nice, and sad, damn, i hate this movie coz it makes me fall in love with more and more...

jamie : so what u wanna see?

landon : ermm.. pluto.

jamie : pluto? pluto only rises few minutes before the sun...

landon : right, and i bought us a thermos of hot coffee, and ermm... blanket.

jamie : u planned this?

landon : owh i hope for it...

-end of crap-

weird much

2009-04-16T14:25:00.005+08:00

bloggin bloggin bloggin, how much i love and enjoy bloggin, i could babble whatever i want, and its fun, but im trying to minimize it a bit bcoz i need to focus on my study as well, i noe spm is around november but it feels like tomorow is november, so i need to get serious with life and stop spending my tyme on the comp, not permanently but only temporary, haha!!!

-today-

today we went back early from school, coz its majlis anugerah cemerlang day, it was hot, i mean not 'hot', but hot with lots and lots of heat, plus the armpit smell, i noe, that's kinda cruel but i cant stand it, and some annoying people, i dunno form 1 girls nowadays are so daring man, when i was in form 1, im trying to stay low as possible so i wont get hated by all those seniors and i admit i did like to watch all those pretty boys (those seniors in form 5), but i never even dare to talk to them, i keep it like a silent fan, liking them from far away, but i never thought that form 1 girls nowadays are so daring to flirt with my friends, i mean some of the form 5 guys. whatever, luckily both of my lil sis are still so noob, if they are the one flirting with my friends i would have smack them on their face, haha!!! joke!!!

majlis anugerah cemerlang was ok, btw congrats to edrea, we expected u will be the student of the year since like last week, and same goes to affiq too, congrats, that was kinda expected but our vote goes to edrea most but hey, u did get it so that means both of u are equally good, congrats!!!

-w.a.n.k's-

so the w.a.k was talking about life after spm duirng recess yesterday, when i was standing like a fool taking care of the counter, they have planned on vacation after spm. i remember last year wanie did say about going to karambunai and spend our holiday there, but they told me it was way expensive, so they change it. khal was suggesting kundasang, and wanie add on by saying "kita pigi sna naik tung ma", wanie, lucu ba ko ni, haha!!! and then i forgot who say this, i think its wash "nda kita pigi sna naik lori, duduk d blakang, duduk dgn kubis, haha!!!" and then all of us automatically look at khal and laugh at her since she got some history with kubis at bp house way back when we were still in form 3. and then i say, "ala, tapi ujung thn aku pg bandung la, aku mo join kamu" and the wanie say, "that's the whole point, supaya ko nda ikut", so mean owh u wanie, and then all of them laughing, haha, watever. and then i was suggesting "alang2 pigi kundasang, bgus kita naik gunung kinabalu trus, ble ba kn", and then wanie was like no no no coz something is for sure, her mom wont let her, haha!!! it was fun talking bout that, hehe!!!

-2am and 2pm review-

here some of their review, 2pm just release their single, again and again, 2am released their single weeks earlier than 2pm, both of them nice, and i love their song.

2am - confession of a friend

2pm - again and again

i dunno that jaebom can sing that well, im falling for him more and more, haha!!!

and our (jureen and me) favourite video of the week is made by my very own friend, napi, haha!!! this is great man, short film, and tey zhi yang was damn funny, haha!!!

-kak yus-

where are u my big sis??? ur comp still sick ah?? aiya, pulang la ko cpt, abg c wanie pun pulang suda, ko bila mo pulang, kerinduan yang teramat suda ni, haha!!!

~~-dear friend-~~

~~still missin u so much, wish u here with me...~~

-end of crap-

talent?? i saw some but not all(esp the winner)

2009-04-12T21:03:00.005+08:00

-tired

(exhausted day, from tuition direct to bakat interact with lots of nonesense stuff to 1b and again, with mood stealer people)

-need a.s.a.p ear treatment

(some girls sitting at the back scream like hell, like being rape by the most dangerous 'tukang rogol', worst than that, i wonder how did she manage to scream like that for almost the whole evening [sabar nak, ingat dunia, stakat tgk org mnari and mnyanyi tu tda pa2, jgn la teriak mcm bsuk mo kiamat suda], i seriously need to see the ear speacialist)

-i didnt really enjoy the day, i dunno why, im not feeling it. maybe bcoz of my dad keep on nagging us, asking us *me and my lil sis* to come back home, dude, when we ask u to bring us anywhere but home, u didnt bring us, but when we went out on our own, u keep on asking us to come back home, is it the home is our only place in this world?? i need to get out sometimes, its not like im going out to do some silly stuff or what, i dun even have a boyfriend to go for a date, what makes u worry that much? i know u care for us, but sometimes u have to let us go on our own, we're not doing something that will ruin ourselves, i just went out with my besfren thats all... dady, ill be okay, trust me pliz? and i do know how to take care of jureen if that's wat make u worry that much, okay?

-end of such a crappyness day-

did the captain of titanic cry?

2009-04-11T00:36:00.003+08:00

another post, shall i say im doing my 70th post, haha!!! its been what, like for about 8 months ive been blogging here, haha!!! *claps*

nothing much to say, today was fine, no chem tuition, ive done my acc revision and done some piano practice, finally i finished my 2nd exam piece, hopefully my teacher will start my training for 3rd piece, since my exam is in june, damn it!!!

hey, i was wondering how is my sister doing in bandung, i mean, its not that we dont have the chance to talk at all, but recently her computer was attacked by flu, and then cannot function la apa lagi, so its been almost 1 month we didnt chat or talk or webcaming each other, oi kak yus, go la downtown to fix ur laptop, we all here missing u like crazy man, mcm the moffats pula, i miss u like crazy, even more than words can say, haha!!! wanie, i envy u, ur brother is coming home while my sis will be back here somewhere around june i guess, haha!!! lamanya lagi!!!

so for the first time in five years being sm all saints student, we, wanks, are heading to menara tun mustapha this coming sunday for "bakat interact", haha!!! damn, i never interested in this kind of event, especially all those people who are involved in it, i mean, im going there to cheer for elle with all her dancer, and to cheer for jason, i heard he's playing what, guitar for the band, and maybe doing some help for luqman and qilah coz i heard they "buka warung makan" there, haha!!! whatever, i was once interested with interact club when i was in form 1 but when i was in form 4, i dunno why im not feeling like joining the club, when i hold the registration paper for all those clubs thingy, there were like what, lots of empty spaces for that club but ive decided to join photography instead of interact.

-end of crap-

random : mission of the day

2009-04-10T11:27:00.003+08:00

just woke up (approximately around 10.30am), i set my phone alarm around 7.30 but i woke up a bit late, but nvmind, haha!!! and thanks to mumy, breakfast was superb (pancake with maple syrup), yey!!!

kdg2 aku bingung ba sma org d ruma ni, aku nda tolong wat kerja marah, marah mcm bsuk mo kiamat, bila aku tolong pun masih jg marah, apa ba salah aku ni, tul2 kin pns ni, klu aku marah balik sma dorg aku kna bilang kurang ajar, klu aku nda mrh balik smpai mati pn nda abis la mngungkit sgala brg2 yg aku nda pna2 dgr, shyeeeeetttt!!!

mission of the day :

- piano homeworks and practice piano piece

- chem tution at 2

- finish all homeworks

- do physics tution works

- revise accounts a bit for tution tomorrow

dear friend, still missing u so so much...

-end of crap-

smrr00 & ft island [random review]

2009-04-09T19:30:00.010+08:00

-youtube people-

this is just a random post, im being random rite now, i went through my empty youtube channel and found some amazing people to be promote, i was thinking of promoting this pianist, if u are one of piano lover or pianist just like me, why dun u try on visiting this page (smrr00), this guy or girl is rock[this people shud be a girl i guess], i love her skills infact i felt envious, when am i going to be playing like that and posting my own talent into youtube, just like what nafi did with his shuffle group, posting their dance in youtube although im not much of a shuffle fan, but hey, they have talent, not like me.

im a pianist too, i mean im not that great or shall i say i dun have that much talent or im not at the level where i can brag about it, but somewhere somehow i love the way this fella play and hit the piano even without the piece, some of the piece that have been posted in the channel are way hard.

-ft island-

for those of u who doesnt know what the heck is ft island, well is not an island, they are one of the korean pop ballad rock band [when i say band,they do play the instrument and compose their own song, just like those people who call themselves a band], and im doing a bit of review about them bcoz im a korean music lover, so if ur not one of them, try get to know a bit and if ur not interested at all, nevermind.

from left : wonbin, jaejin, minhwan, hongki, junghoon

it started with five members group (junghoon,wonbin,hongki,jaejin and minhwan) of boys, all i can say even after the 1st and 2nd album, with the same composer, junghoon, their music are quite similiar, song after song, but one thing for sure, i still love their song even after the departure one of their member, wonbin, and replaced by new kid, seunghyun.

with new member, seunghyun (top, right)

my latest addiction was this song, as always, so mushy but i love the piano version of it, its nice.

[please dont love / 사랑하지마요 by ft island]

( credits : smrr00 )

here also some of my favourite song, again the piano version of it, how i wish i could play...

[bad women / 나쁜여자야 by ft island]

(credits : smrr00 )

-end of crap-

blah blah blah and whatever

2009-04-09T15:28:00.006+08:00

ive gainned my mood for blogging today... but...

im tired physically because of such a stupid and horrible decision of agreeing to be in the henthorne netball team where somebody say we lost because of us[the seniors,to be exact 3 seniors] joining the team at the very last minute, and i ended up skipping accounts tuition because i cant even wake up from my bed, i slept from 6.30pm on the 8th of april and woke up at 4.30am of 9th april, what else u want from me young lady, how much would you pay for my precious time where i can study accounts which i only have accounts class only once a week?

im mad because of someone wash cant finish her physics drawing where that drawing ended up as our peka, luckily with my wet drawing [i dun blame u wanie] that i didnt really have the chance to fix it due to my fatigue from the netball match, we [me and wash, it was a partner work] manage to passed our peka while u are able to get A maybe?? huh??

today was so hard, i mean, ive been through a lot today, it was a quite stressing day, damn it!!! i can be malignant when im going under a stressing situation, and stress turns me into frantic, whatever, what ever happen today i just keep it to myself, saying things about it over and over again make me sick and the scene will keep on rolling in my head, i just keep it to myself because that's the best way to do(what's the point of having a mini homepage), if i wrote everything here, ~~someone might wrote a reply towars my post on their blog~~.

again, im doing the same thing, ~~only veiwing his profile and yet i cant barely write anything to him~~, not even a hello. ~~hey dear someone, i missed u so much, have you forgotten bout me here who was living here, the one whom u spent almost all of ur holiday smsing with me~~? damn, what in the world is happening to me.

-end of crap-

something weird today

2009-04-04T22:24:00.005+08:00

i realize something today, i mean, its weird, i miss him(actually i missed him since early of this year,almost like everyday), i keep on viewing his profile, wanted to drop a few words but when i try, my hand is trembling and i just cant. now that i realize that i actually like him more than a friend. gosh, why now??? why not later after spm??? im eager to talk to him, my god!!! wat is wrong wit me??? pliz dun let me fall in love with him, i was suppose to be his friend... damn it!!! dear someone, i miss u...

~~enough of the drama, i will bury my feelings towards him, loving him is something impossible since he's _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _...~~

~~ps to myself : wassup with these "jiwang" crap??? damn...~~

-end of crap-

lolli lolli lollilop... haha!!!

2009-04-03T20:46:00.003+08:00

i want suju album, haha!!! im laughing out loud, damn, im hungry...

i did talk to saif about this whole blogging thingy, it was like im asking him whether i act like a biotch on my own blog, he did say i may have gone a lil bit too far, but he did say at the same time, i got the total 101% to do whatever i want, and he did say that azrie told him that the blogging stuff nowadays have been abuse, abuse from what he say was not by cursing other ppl in their blog BUT by having our blog published to the public, that was the whole abuse thingy!!! blog was suppose to be private, nobody should read it unless u gave them a permission, just like the old diary with those small lock attach on them, u r the only one who is holding the key, rite??? so when it is clearly that blog is not something to be published unless u gave a permission to do so, that means the whole ethics of writing a blog is completely useless, i mean come on, sometimes not all the things u wrote in ur blog is good rite?? the conclusion is, should i make my blog private instead of letting other people read mine just like a daily newspaper???

nothing much happen in school, infact it was quite boring, total lesson for friday was 7 period, 2 periods of chem, admaths and pj each, and 1 period for maths, but, as for today, the whole 6 period the class was so damn free man...

special shoutout to kak yus way back at bandung, oi, bila ko mo on9?? rindu rinduan suda kmi smua d sni ni, haha!!!

-end of crap-

random post : recovering from being a biatch

2009-04-01T22:10:00.003+08:00

i miss captain jack sparrow and captain hook so much... rest in peace my dear friend... love u guys so much (^-^)

i like minhwan in this pic, he's cute, haha!!!

of all my pictures, i think this is the pic where i look the cutest and my face look so beautiful with a big sincere smile, haha!!!

-end of crap-

feel like hating myself

2009-03-31T19:00:00.004+08:00

i hate today, nothing seems to go on my way, everybody have been like a biatch, whatever, take a deep breath nadia, and put on the most fake smile on my face just to cover the fact...

but i did realize that not everything we want goes as what we planned rite??? ive been a bitch to myself, but i cant help it...

to anybody, how common is everybody rite??? to everybody who happen to read my blog or wat so ever, i did say this in my last post that this is my very own page and i have a right to write wat ever i want although it may hurt anybody else, so please if u guys hate me, dun read wat i write, like i say, not everything that we thought about can be delivered through our mouth, im just saying wat have been bothering me, i dun have a mum and a dad that i can share everything with, my sister so far away that i cant barely talk to her and my lil sis's have their own problem, same goes to my friend, im trying my best not to depend on anybody, i did pray to gain some serenity and peace but i still aint gettin it, so here it goes, this place is my blog, my diary, my journal, my story, if i could i would write every single things that i do on this tiny small spaces.

-end of crap-

yummy and me

2009-03-27T23:32:00.006+08:00

rite now im sitting next to one of my family, yummy the cat, and he keep on staring at me, kinda funny actually, with his big eyes, and smelly mouth, haha!!!

its been a week after school re-open, im tired, i dunno why, mentally most, exam results, i hate being the loser in the class, but wat can i do, when i say that to my friends, all they do was look at me with a blank stare, its not their fault but im just expressing how i felt, but when i get that as a result, i decided to keep quiet, i think its better that way. i dun blame them.

i agree 101% with wanie's post, wanks stands for a group name and not her name, some ppl just called her randomly with that name, hey, i was the inventor of the name, haha!!! lol...

(Wassidah Amalina Nadia Khaleeda 'shivonna)

its kinda weird i always have something to say or to be exact, write, but not for now...

-end of crap-

back to busy mode

2009-03-22T19:34:00.005+08:00

im a cat lover, what do you expect, i fall in love with them eventhough sometimes some of them look dirty, haha!!! this shud be my last post coz im back to my busy mode, school starts tomorrow and of coz, lots and lots of things to do, ill update my blog if i got a free time, chow!!!

-end of crap-

entitled : untitled

2009-03-16T14:03:00.007+08:00

-just now-

damn it, i was about to talk to my long lost friend thru our one and only way, msngr, and then there u go disturbing me and playing the stupid game on the komp, giv me a break, i havent talk to him since like forever, u wanted to play that stupid game and u did play it yesterday and that was my one and only chance to talk to him, u took it away just like that. omg im damn freakin pissed off rite now!!! aish, i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *deep breath, calm down nadia, that was ur dad that ur mad at*

-yesterday-

since u took away my mood already, im not gonna rite any longer, just let the picture do the talking, aish, super duper mood stealer la, damn it!!!

1st stop was rch, ate lunch there bfore went to coffee bean to do works.

2nd stop, as always at coffee bean, it was quite crowded inside there, but we managed to get a sit,and eat again...

3rd stop was outside coffee bean, its just gettin to crowded inside,so we decided to continue our work outside, to get some air... and qilah was late,but nvm,haha...

4th stop was burger king, i noe, but we ate a lot that day,haha...

5th stop was at pizza hut coz mum and dad wants to eat there, i noe, we do eat a lot that day...huhu...

most of the tyme im not in da pic, wat do you expect, im the cameraman, and most of the pic got saif in it, camwhore,haha!!!

-end of crap-

kak yus,haha!!!

2009-03-15T01:38:00.004+08:00

-Kak yus-

haha, just had a conversation with my sis at bandung, miss her a lot!!! she did say the 2nd smster break approximately 3months, is it??? cant wait for it, haha!!!

i dun look gud in any picture that i took, but the important part was the situation and what happen to you in that picture rite?? damn, i talk crap again...

kame hame ha!!!

2009-03-14T23:39:00.003+08:00

-dragon ball evolution-

just got back from watchin dragon ball, it was nice, i like the goku, still look kinda innocent, not like the chi chi, keep on showing off her boobs, i mean, she does look beautiful and sexy infact i like her looks, but that's not how chi chi should look like, she should be someone innocent just like goku, but nvm. at least i would say that my 9rggt, i mean, my mum's 9rggt did not waste just like that, rite??? i mean that movie was fine, but i did agree to what abg gaji say, its like stephen chow does not have enough budget to make the movie slightly longer. haha wanie, i watched it already with my siblings, my kazens and my kazen ipar, wash, kidnapped her from home at approximately 8.15, hehe!!!

-tomorrow-

another hit to coffee bean, chem project, i missed that place actually, for two consecutive months we (me,wash,edna,qilah and saif) have been to that place, all for the sake of assignments or group project, haha!!! whatever, if doing the assignment will help me to improve myself in any ways and if that project contribute something to my spm, i dun mind doing it eventhough it is tiring,huhu!!!

ill be writing more soon, since its holiday, i get to spend some quality time with my beloved page,hehe!!!

-end of crap-

another day, another chapter of life

2009-03-13T13:10:00.006+08:00

-school-

school was fine, nothing more, nothing less, its just that i found out that mr.hardizan tricked me completely by saying i failed my admaths, and it turns out that he lied to me, mybe bcoz he thinks the question are easy for me, so he kinda expected me to get higher marks, but alhamdulillah!!! i didnt failed my admaths!!! another record!!! i hope i can maintain it until the end of the year, haha!!! im quite proud of my admaths achievements since i failed all my 3 science subject since the beginning of form4, haha!!!

today is qilah's bday, and mitran too, the twins, haha!!! so a special shoutout to them, happy birthday to NUR AQILAH SAFAR and MITRAN KIANDEE, happy sweet 17 u people... and remember, its friday the 13,haha!!! whatever, i like to talk crap, haha!!!

i found out from my friends that our school teacher do read our blog, i mean im not so sure if one of them ever read mine, so my sincere apologies to all the teachers that i ever curse or wat so ever, im sorry but its just that this is my very own small spaces to express what ever i felt about my life, i did say that this page is my self satisfaction, i cant really let everything out through my mouth so this is just the way we do it, im so sorry to any teachers that ever read my page and felt hurt. we dont really mean it in a bad way, but we cant let it be a burden in our head and heart by keeping it to ourself rite???

-no ice cream???-

so today me, wanie and wash go home with a broken heart, no cornetto royale sweetheart brownies at sing hing, damn it, im still trying my best to memorize the name, why cant we just call it cornetto brownies instead of those long names???

im ending my crap here...

-end of crap-

yeah yeah yeah

2009-03-12T22:10:00.003+08:00

-Cornetto Royale Sweetheart Brownies-

ok wanie and sheeda, i will join u guys tmrow for it, ill bring extra money for it since it is quite expensive for someone "kedekut" like me,haha!!! but i can taste the heaven when i ate it last time,haha!!!

-damn exam-

yup yup yup and yup, like wanie say, i did curse a lot, just like her, just bcoz of that super bitch 1st exam, damn damn damn it!!! 1st time in history, i failed my addmaths, thanks to the super little question which if u get right, u gain lots and lots of marks, but if u didnt get it correct, it caused u to fail, aiyo!!! im so damn mad bcoz my exam did not went well as i expected, aish!!! im not going to mention how careless i am until i failed my chem, it will add more the bleeding complication that i have in my heart and head due to studying like there's no tmrow for this stupid exam.

-holiday-

yey!!! holiday!!! what more i can ask from the school if its not the school holiday, haha!!! but im gonna treat this holiday seriously, i am planning on my daily schedule, a well-planned study schedule, im sick of being the loser in the class, getting last placing in my class, im sick and tired of it, its not like being in A class is my wish, sometimes i hate the fact that i get my 8a's, i dun like being in A class, it is another picture of hell, i hate the people (sorry to all my classmate, i cant help it but im a sloworker and im not one of the genius people, i cant help it being surrounded by a bunch of clever people),i hate the teachers, some of them think that all A class people are clever and treat all those sloworker like a geniuses, and the fact that i cant even spell genius in english or is that how genius spelled in english?? see, im not that clever people!!! putting too much pressure on us, and lorna who keep on emphasising "this is my best class, they are the hope for the school", hey lady, u better stop quoting those words to other people, or else i might be gettin too much pressure untill it ruin my spm.

ill be writing more soon, its holiday, hahahahaha!!! gtg watcg boys over flower...

-end of crap-

dear friend

2009-03-10T23:45:00.003+08:00

dear friend,

today i met u,

it was a quite confusing moment.

there were part of me that is still filled with anger towards you.

but there were also part of me that missed you.

i keep on asking myself.

why do i have to feel that way?

u were more like my big brother.

but your absentees,

from the moment u left my bestfriend,

i keep on missing ur presence.

why do i have to felt that way?

dear friend,

i wish i could tell u,

that although i cursed u badly after u left my besfriend for that other girl,

i still miss u more like my own brother.

i wish i could say that,

i will never regret the fact that,

we have been friend,

thanks for all ur support when everybody keep on pulling me down,

when everybody keep on asking me to back up,

thanks for being one of the people who pushed me back,

who pushed me back where i was suppose to be,

and thanks for ur kindness,

thanks for ur trust towards me,

thanks for keep on believing in me when everybody doesnt,

ill treasure the moment,

the moment when u were still with us,

ill treasure it for the rest of my life...

thank you friend, i will always remember you...

sunday isnt so bad

2009-03-08T14:31:00.003+08:00

im gonna start the post with suju stuff, haha!!! suju's coming back with new album, i noe im kinda late but i noe bout it since last year, so nevermind, at least me myself noe where i am, haha!!!

the video teaser was nice, i like their comeback look, and im sure i will be asking sam to buy the album if she's going to kl, or maybe i shud just ask my sis to find it in bandung, hope its there,haha!!!

so exam is here, finally, i mean, ive been waiting for it coz after exam is holidays!!! yey!!! i desperately need my beauty sleep during holiday and not to forget, study for my spm, aiyo, life couldnt get better huh??

nothing much today, its just a normal day, i was planning on to study bio later, i got a new book for bio, so that i will study, and i dunno why im not so comfortable with everything dat im doing rite now,i mean even when im writing here, i dun feel quite good. gosh, what's wrong with me?

i did something with this pic, learn how to use adobe photoshop from youtube, haha!!! im not quite pro with pic editing stuff, a newbies... haha!!! but it turn out quite good i think, haha!!!

im not sure if its nice, but i guess its ok for me, haha!!! gtg, write again soon...

-end of crap-

random : you raise me up

2009-03-07T19:30:00.002+08:00

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary,

When troubles come and my heart burdened be,

Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,

Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains,

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas,

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders,

You raise me up, To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains,

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas,

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders,

You raise me up, To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger,

Each restless heart beats so imperfectly,

But when you come and I am filled with wonder,

Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains,

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas,

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders,

You raise me up, To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains,

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas,

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders,

You raise me up, To more than I can be.

untitled

2009-03-05T21:53:00.003+08:00

-so yesterday-

so again, wong fu makes me pissed off again and again, after he return us back our peka, he keep on accusing us that we copied our peka, and this tyme he accuse our group a.k.a table, but the truth is, our table a.k.a so called our group havent even pass up our peka. haha!!! wat a fool, im trying to love you so that i will at least pass ur physics exam but you keep on giving us lots and lots of reasons to hate you even more. whatever, i dun give a damn about physics, its not like im going to use it the future.

-today-

today was fine, nothing more nothing less, limbo during pj class was great, didnt noe there were so many girls in 5a and 5b have such a flexible body, haha!!! it was fun but kinda embarrassing, haha!!!

currently im watching korean hana yori dango, a.k.a kkotboda namja at youtube, i noe everybody went crazy over it but what can i do, im one of them,haha!!!

recently there were too many drama have been going on in the prefects board, it kinda pissed me off, im a neutral kinda person, im not on anybody sides, neither on the heads, x-prefects nor the form6 prefects, but the drama feels like killing me, all the non-stop argument btween the form 6 prefects, x-prefects and the all the heads. damn it, when is this soap opera drama is going to end??? can we just work in a peacefull way??? im sick of those kind of drama, im not born to live with this kind of thing coz it killing me u noe??? when is it going to end??? sometimes i felt like it is useless to be one of the school prefects, it feels like ur attempting on a long term suicide, i mean, give me break,ive been a prefect since i was like in form1, it means it is for almost five years, five years on attempting a suicide...

cant wait for the moment where we are going to retire from our duty, please let it be early, im sick of this kind of things man...

thats all for now, write again soon...

(fyi,this post have been written on the 6th of march,not 5th,haha!!!)

no more you

2009-03-01T01:29:00.003+08:00

its 1.30 in the morning and im still up, im doing my chem homeworks and believe me, im still in question 2 out of 11 question with lots and lots of questions babies, kinda slow huh??? well dats me, i worked as slow as possible so dat i could understand it well and get at least 60 marks in 1st term exam, since cikgu susan set 60 marks is the passing marks for my class for chem subject, damn it, but i love her, she does know how to teach us.

im taking a break rite now, so decided to write something here, hehe!!!

so one bad news for this year, well i dun really consider it as a bad news, kinda balance, i like it but at the same time im kinda hating it, scouts 01st kk CANT have a camp this year, double the damn it!!! its my last year being a troop leader and damn it again, i wanna do the camp for the troop. but teacher keep on reminding us the form five ajk's to focus on spm, dats a gud thing, super gud thing, but that's a bad thing too, bcoz it will spoil my reputation as a troop leader, DAMN it AGAIN!!! how am i suppose to face all the kelana when i cant even organize a camp, and what would my troop be saying about me??? but on the other thing, they still have the plan on kem perdana, i hope it will happen for real this year, to cover up our kem keahlian.

kem lencana usaha 2007, bp house...

when i flipped back all the pictures in file in comp, i miss lots and lots of thing, hehe!!! i missed pearl being with us during form2 year, it was great. i rmmber escaping kh class with her when wanie and khal was absent from school, not to forget jason who escaped with us, and at the end its me and jason who got caught, pearl didnt. how fair could that be huh pearl??? hehe!!!

moments... loving it so much!!! hehe!!!

and khal told me today bout a story while we were in form3, it was art class, it was cikgu rashidah's class, she told us to draw a pic of buah2an tempatan, wat surprise us was, jason finished his drawings,but on the paper, only a table and only one apple have been drawn, fyi, apple is not buah2an tempatan and when teacher say buah-buahan, it means lots and lots of fruits, he draw only one fruit which is not a local fruit. jason jason,haha!!!

a candid of pearl and jason during class party 2006...

well i had enough of break,gtg finish my homeworks, huhu!!!

-end of crap-

suddenly saturday!!!

2009-02-28T11:01:00.003+08:00

just got back from physics extra class, i was late this morning. 30 minutes late and wong fu locked the lab door, so sneak in without him noticing me. too bad for qilah, she's late too and got scolded by wong fu, lucky me coz he did not even noticed that i wasnt inside the lab 30 mins before that, wakaka!!! pity him...

as always from physics class, i got nothing, just wasting my tyme sitting in the lab listening to his words that i cant barely understand, chit chatting with wash, the only thing i was focusing on was rai's new phone, taking pictures of everybody and playing solitaire. man im good in solitaire, hehe!!! and the next thing i know, today's experiment have 99% potential of becoming our peka and dumb me bcoz i wasnt focusing on it and now i have to copy other ppl lab report, damn it!!!

seriously man, i think rai is going to be so mad at me if i keep on copying her report, i mean if i was in her position i would just scream at other ppl who never try to do your own thing on your own, rai please forgive me, i didnt really mean it, hehe!!! and please lend me your report just for this tyme, i mean ill try to be a better person??? rite rai??? after all you are my one and only fren who i can always fight with, hehe!!!

so next programme of the day, mrs.wong tution class, piano class and at nite maybe mengaji. and at nite i must try to finish chem homeworks, aiyo, 11 question on rate of reaction, 11 question seems so little but i havent tell you the bad part of it, each question have like maybe around 6-10 babies, imagine how many question is that??? must finish it!!!

i guess that's all for today,btw, i dun really have any pic to post, i have no tyme to take a new pic,and plus im not a good camwhore,hehe!!!

-end of crap-

cough cough, im sick of it

2009-02-27T15:17:00.002+08:00

today i escaped chem tution, im nt in da mood for study rite now, so i escaped, plus friday makes me felt lazy, hehe!!!

im not so into the mood for writing rite now, but i have nothing to do and im kinda sleepy and tired.

schools are fine, but i get the feeling that im not really enjoying it these past few days, maybe bcoz i was sick, i dunno, im just not in da mood maybe. sometimes i do get tired of life, having all my frens at school was great but not for all the time, what we do in our daily life is our lifetime drama, too much drama could kill me slowly. i learned that i shouldnt get to easy or comfy even around my own frens, my insecurity keeps on telling me not to get too comfortable that easily, coz sometimes its not the rite thing to do. not to say that i didnt trust my own frens.

being 17 is not that cool, sometimes kids say that they want to grow older faster bcoz when ur older, there's so many things that u could do, but i missed my childhood memory, where i dun really have to think about my life, and just being fren with lots and lots of innocent little kids. im not saying that 17 is way too old for me but im kinda not ready to face all of this. man its life we're talking about here.

when u get old, u will change, either bit by bit or a lot at one tyme. and as ur age move on, more sacrifices needed from us, like for example tomorrow, physics extra class, im sacrificing my nice saturday early morning sleep for wong fu's extra class. cant exactly blame him like ms sophia say, he got a family too and he sacrifice his family tyme teaching stupid physics.

im off for now, gtg, its my nap tyme and im tired, hehe!!! chow!!!

-end of crap-

My words,thoughts and crap...

He-he-hello two zero!!

So long 2011,Hello 2012.

If it's you...

Someone is excited for holidays :D

KK in my heart :D

delayed : socially awkward

And this is how the story goes...

It's a damn cold night

reach for the sky, up up and away...

One better day...

new life,new journey,new beginning

It's been awhile i guess...

yesterday :D

dreams are my reality

SM All Saints school bazaar

you make me wonder

another normal day.

Happy 19th Birthday AMALINA HAZWANI

i'm back, and this time is for real.

i'm back... i guess...

update2...

so i guessed its a goodbye then?

1st post of the year

like being shot by a bullet

Tumblr baby...

hakuna matata

ring ding dong

it's all about you

can't stop, we won't stop

im still kyuhyunholic

OH YEAH!! IM FEELING GOOD!!

bye bye part 1

update

pancak pancak star ya...

time to love

raya is just around the corner

oh my super girl...

anger much

tired

i hate this part of life

im still alive baby!!!

PONYO!!!

confession of a not so broken heart

[updated] a piece of madness, crap and joy

listen to my word

delayed

(updated) im updating!!!

off for 4 days

100th post *claps*

cheers to you for criticising us

unwanted

short update

i dont want to know (?)

im feeling the love

back to reality

so much of a drama

all about me

today...

re-edit : how to save a life

ill go by the name of nadia

i snezzed(?) my brain out

facts of the week

nadia got cursed by her own words

last day of holiday

random : kyuhyun (^-^)

H-O-L-I-D-A-Y

wonbin oppa...

i forgot to put a title...

random review

wordless

anger; theme of the week

i love super junior!!!

coward : perfect name for you

voice within

what happened??

blogging schedule??

weird much

talent?? i saw some but not all(esp the winner)

did the captain of titanic cry?

100th post claps